Miserable

I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder around the age of 5. I was also officially or unofficially diagnosed with Selective Mutism - as I didn't talk at school. I still don't, except to answer questions or ask the teacher a question or something. But my mental health really started to become a significantly distressful at age 12.

It started out with anxiety (not social or anything to do with feeling bad about myself.) But now it's misery. Everyday, all day (though it seems to worsen at night) I feel miserable. It's a physical feeling in my head, too. (Not painful or anything)

I'm on 50 mg of Zoloft, and 1 mg of Risperidone. I take Trazodone, but not consistently. The medication doesn't do anything for me. My mother and the nurse think it's helping me, but I still feel horrible everyday. I'm not suicidal, in the sense that I'm not planning to kill myself. 

I do go to therapy, but it doesn't work for me. 

The nurse thinks I'm Bipolar, but I don't know. 

I just want things to change, but the treatment seems to be going nowhere. 

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