Molluscum anxiety, please help

Hi

I had MC for about four or five months. I thought I was totally clear by about the beginning of February. I had it on my genitals, thighs, and towards the end my chest as well. I tried so many different things to get rid of them that it's hard to know what actually worked in the end, however they really started to go when I used a combination of salicylic acid soap and just popping the things using a needle and rubbing alcohol. I had the most, probably around 25 at any given time, in my genital area. They shrivelled up and went away.

A couple of weeks ago, I noticed some pink blotches in my genital area along with some flat, clear spots on my chest. Obviously I freaked the eff out. I ran to my GP, who looked at the spots on my chest and said they didn't look like molluscum, just "random lesions" and advised applying sudocrem. I did pop one and no core came out, just some clear fluid and a bit of blood. He called in a sexual health nurse to look at my genitals, she looked using a big bright light and said it was just scarring. That I can believe... but I continue to worry about the ones on my chest. Any tiny spot on my body, for that matter. I don't think I can see the dimple in the ones on my chest and I compared a picture I took of the lesions in my genitals when I was first diagnosed and they don't look the same.. but I'm still worried sick. I constantly Google images of molluscum to compare with the ones on my chest and some look the same, some don't. I know it's not common for molluscum to come back... but still, I'm worried sick. I study my genitals every day for signs and I often find little red bumps that make me panic, but by the next day they've gone down and a hair has sprouted out. Even back in November when I last got it seen to the doctor said the lesions I had seemed to be healing up.

I guess I'm just looking for some advice and reassurance. I know it's not common for molluscum to come back and it's highly unlikely I've been reinfected, I haven't had sex since... and I know two different healthcare professionals have said don't worry... I do trust this GP... but it doesn't stop the anxiety. I found a little red bump on my bikini line last night and I think I can see a hair inside, its not dimpled and when i pull it i can see s little white bump underneath.. my bikini line is nearly always red and irritated... but all this reassuring myself just isn't working. Doctors really do underestimate the psychological impact this condition has. I think it's just that I never got spots on my chest before, none that I noticed anyway. I am stressed out and did just have a very heavy period a couple weeks back. I don't know if that might be part of it. Its got to the point where I'm constantly studying blemishes on others to compare them to my own. A lot of people seem to have spots that look like mine, which gives me some hope. I'm constantly googling this for reassurance and all I come across is horror stories of people having this for years. I just want my life back.

Any advice anyone can offer on whether this sounds like molluscum or if not how to manage the horrible anxiety it's left me with would be hugely appreciated. Thank you.

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