Morbid thoughts
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I'm going to find this difficult to type, is there something seriously wrong with me, been on 30mg mirt for two days upped from 15 it does knock me out sleep is still disturbed been having weird dreams that go on for ages (seemto), now I have no motivation but my mind is going off at a tangent. I am still having suicidal thoughts but no enerygy to action them. Then my mind goes in overdrive having some really morbid sick thoughts to the point i am looking up really sick things on the internet, Should I talk to someone about this as it is beginning to scare me. I've stayed in bed so far again today as I like to think I'd be safe there.
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sheila65847 tina89895
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Have you a close friend or relative you can talk to today? Try and getting out of bed. It does us no good to isolate. Make an appointment with your GP or CPN tomorrow
tina89895 sheila65847
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suzie78191 tina89895
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i feel bad for you. i have come down from 30 to 15, due to increased anxiety, fatigue, sadness ... still have anxiety. call the hospial .. tell them exactly how you feel. i too hav e felt desperate for some help. can u see a dr?
suzie78191 tina89895
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how are you? did yoy call anyone?
tina89895 suzie78191
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suzie78191 tina89895
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tina89895 suzie78191
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I hope you get on well I went with an open mind as I didn't really know what to expect.
I will speak to someone soon, I've got to ring my mother first which is very difficult as she is deaf and refuses to wear her hearing aid oh what fun.
I just think when things are said out loud they sound so stupid but I suppose they have heard a lot of things.
craig2828 tina89895
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tina89895 craig2828
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I was on citalapram from Sep until I changed over as the powers to be decided it wasn't doing anything. I am just so tired of it all, I have just spoken to a emergency CPN at the hospital I have got to distract myself if I feel suicidal ring NHS24 and possible contact my GP tomorrow. Keep chopping and changing medication doesn't give it time to work, I just wish i'd never started them in the first place.
I might go and visit my son for a while then go and get a takeaway as I haven't eaten much today either.
Thanks for listening everyone Tina x
suzie78191 tina89895
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tina89895 suzie78191
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Sunbird8 tina89895
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I have no words of wisdom to offer but just wanted you to know that my heart goes out to you.
To have so much suffering is dreadful.
Please know that I hol you in my thoughts and prayers.
May you soon have better times.
suzie78191 Sunbird8
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Mermaid3011 tina89895
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Hey Tina,
hope you are reading this.
Yes I feel the same way. I have quite a few nasty suicidal thoughts and have acted on them, but quit early enough.
are your thoughts more of self harm or harming others?
If you dont have anyone to talk to about your thoughts. why dont you share them here? I mean... that's what we are here for, right? Maybe they arent even as morbid and awful as you think they are. Maybe others have them too.
When I feel low I start researching methods. Get very technical. Want to know every little detail. I think that's how I cope and keep myself from really acting on them.
I hope my post somehow can help you.
tina89895 Mermaid3011
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What a great nights sleep not I've been waking all weird times all night the last two nights must of been a two off.
My thoughts were nothing to do with self harm or suicide. I was thinking if I did commit suicide and was successful would they do a post mortem nd it snowballed from there. Then real crime scenes etc.
When or if I do commit suicide it is by drowning where I live there is plenty of water and secluded beaches plus it doesn't involve anyone else also I don't want my son to find me at home hanging or taken an overdose.
This is all in my crisis plan that has been written up etc with my cpn.
It feels weird writing this out as if it is someone else.
It is comforting in a weird way knowing someone else does think along the same lines and I am not totally insane.
Tina x