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I have had depression for the most part of my life. It's something I have had to learn to live with and just manage as best I can. For the past few weeks, I have been putting a lot of effort into exercising good habits to keel myself happy & occupied. I try to get a good 8 hours sleep and wake up at about 6/7. I write a list of things I aim to achieve that day, which is the only way I can really stay on track. I go for a jog. Come back and have a healthy breakfast and some coffee. I then get straight to one of the tasks on my list (work stuff, working on a creative project, doing the dishes, laundry, going into town, etc.)
However, I seem to be hitting a roadblock. I wake up feeling like the world is literally my oyster. I smile and dance around and sing and absolutely love everything. It feels so right. (Not a severe high/euphoria, just optimism and a great outlook.) Then at about 11am, it starts creeping in. The depression. It completely swamps me and swallows my mood, and no matter what I try, I am screwed, self-loathing and severely depressed until I wake up the next morning. I find myself relishing those few happy hours and then becoming frustrated when it disappears. It happens no matter what I do!!!! Does this happen to anybody else? I wish it was always early morning
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