Morning high?
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Hey all,
I have had depression for the most part of my life. It's something I have had to learn to live with and just manage as best I can. For the past few weeks, I have been putting a lot of effort into exercising good habits to keel myself happy & occupied. I try to get a good 8 hours sleep and wake up at about 6/7. I write a list of things I aim to achieve that day, which is the only way I can really stay on track. I go for a jog. Come back and have a healthy breakfast and some coffee. I then get straight to one of the tasks on my list (work stuff, working on a creative project, doing the dishes, laundry, going into town, etc.)
However, I seem to be hitting a roadblock. I wake up feeling like the world is literally my oyster. I smile and dance around and sing and absolutely love everything. It feels so right. (Not a severe high/euphoria, just optimism and a great outlook.) Then at about 11am, it starts creeping in. The depression. It completely swamps me and swallows my mood, and no matter what I try, I am screwed, self-loathing and severely depressed until I wake up the next morning. I find myself relishing those few happy hours and then becoming frustrated when it disappears. It happens no matter what I do!!!! Does this happen to anybody else? I wish it was always early morning
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satyanand11 vivie91
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laura11452 vivie91
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Its brilliant that you are doing everything to help yourself..
Can you keep record of what your thought process is at the time your mood is starting to go down?
You also say it starts at 11am that would indicate to me that its possible your thought process is preparing you for a mood dip.
What are you doing around this time?
It could also be coming from the fact you are trying to control your mood and push the depression away instead of just accepting that is the way it is at the minute..
vivie91 laura11452
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Hey Laura,
That's a good idea, I might see if I can pinpoint what my thoughts are at this time! Usually it just feels like a wave that hits me, like when you hit that wall of tiredness midway through work/school, and in turn it makes me feel hopeless/dejected and I find it hard to do anything.
In a bit of a rut with finding a second job in a new city at the moment so perhaps that is making me feel a bit hopeless/daunted...
Thanks for the advice!
laura11452 vivie91
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g.90572 vivie91
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