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I'm a 23 year old female who to my friends is a bubbly person and a great listener.
Since 2015 my life went down hill I been suffering with stress from previous years and lost my grandparent which proper tore me apart and that same week I lost my job and was just being piled up with debt that I just kept to myself. I met a guy but basically he saw the state I was in and took me for granted and became physical. I stopped being with him and tried to basically get my life on track. Then I was told my grandparent who died wasn't really blood but was told not to say I been told so I have just had that on my heart and then I became this angry person. This year I met someone and clicked straight away basically moved in things was going fast. Then the past crept up on me and I would argue all the time which led me to be physical till he had enough and I just couldn't deal with him leaving I just felt he was my comfort but when I was mad I went all the way mad and took it out on him and he wouldn't understand. I've wrote a sucide letter but I'm just scared to go through with the actual deed. I cry everyday I just feel when I try to get back on track something else happens. I haven't been to my GP I'm scared to talk about it but here because no one don't know who I am I feel I can say it as if it's my diary.
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