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My name is Rachael, I am 32 years old. I have had anxiety since I was about 10 years old, it has gotten so bad, I have become just about scared of everything, including my own shadow. I am scared to go to the drs as am scared they'd think I am a hypocondriac, I am scared of heights, open water (rivers, lakes, swimming pools, oceans, ect), people, being out the house for more than 10 mins at a time, being around family, fair ground rides, loud noises, spiders, the list could go on but I won't bore you all too much. I have social anxiety on top of things, I can just about make it to work and back, I only work with a small group of people so can just about handle it, as I work nights, it makes life that little bit easier. I can't say I am suisidal even though I have had dark thoughts as I am too scared of pain and hurting myself and that overcomes any tendancys I have towards suiside. Does anyone else go through this?? I feel like I am alone and that when I talk to people about it, they seem to think I am just being stupid and idiotic which doesn't help matter, I do feel completely cut off from the world.
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