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My Anxiety has never been this bad...

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jesse36624
jesse36624

I have struggled with Anxiety for as long as I can remember. It has never been this bad before, I'm so concerned something is wrong with me. It wasn't until a few months ago I started noticing a change in the way I felt. I got out of a very bad abusive relationship & started self medicating (smoking cannabis) on a daily basis, mainly to numb my mind from the stuff that happened to me.

 Here I am today and I honestly feel like I'm falling apart/going crazy. I had my first actual panic attack which left me hospitalized about a week ago. It was the scariest five minutes of my life, and the effects of it lasted a while after that. The doctor at the ER prescribed me 15 .05 mg Ativan... it did help a lot with my anxiety, but once I used it all the anxiety came back FULL force. I feel off, and I feel even more depressed and anxious then I did before. My psychiatrist prescribed me 10mg prozac but that's not helping at the moment, as it takes about a month to actually kick in. I'm exhuasted mentally... I just want to live a normal life again. I'm always scared something is wrong with my health or that I'm dying. 

 

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  • hadi67176
    hadi67176 jesse36624

    Posted

    Hey Jesse, don't worry you're not dying, these are just the usual symptoms of anxiety, I'm the same as you are and I'm going through therapy and medication right now and let me tell you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, just keep up with your meds and your therapy sessions and you will feel a lot better in a months time, I've been suffering from anxiety for 2 months and a half now and I mean I was knocked out in my bed for 6 weeks after four panic attacks, I seriously thought I had a major illness that wasn't going to go away, but since my meds have kicked in with a help of my psychiatrist I've started to feel normal again, so don't worry and keep fighting. 

    And yes I have done all physical check ups as doctors didn't find anything physically wrong with me.

    So please DO NOT worry and hang in there!!! 

    You're not alone dear! smile 

    • jesse36624
      jesse36624 hadi67176

      Posted

      Thank you so much for replying everyone. These past few weeks have been tough, but I have a great support group around me. The last therapy session I had was really a break through, she told me things that made so much sense. I can't wait to go back to my next session. The medicine's making me really foggy/depressed... but I know in time I'll feel better smile
  • shari44593
    shari44593 jesse36624

    Posted

    In the beginning it's always hard.  Things will get easier in time. Its, like a, roller-coaster for me. I get really good, then back down. Its been 4 months for me. First 2 months didn't ho on meds.  Was scared to take anything. It takes time for your meds to kick in. You will be ok. I'm having my tuff time right now. No appetite,  worried I'm losing to much weight,  and getting anxious a lot, and gas bubbles, nausea.  Try to focus on good things. It's hard, which I do as well. Things will get easier, don't stop believing. 
    • plainden
      plainden shari44593

      Posted

      Hi,how long does down spell last ?I had 6 days of feeling great,now on 5th day of feeling rotten-i just cannot function at all.Been on meds for 6.5 wks 50mg but am wondering if meds shld be increased or changed even.i had such hope for the meds but i am v.disillusioned at the moment.
  • Aspinan
    Aspinan jesse36624

    Posted

    Your in very good company Jesse! The meds do take time to kick in to the system and then it takes a little while to feel the benefits, bit like any other drug, take paracetamol for a headache it takes 15 mins to get into the system then the headache "gradually" fades sometimes you don't notice it. Meds like Prozac need time to alter and address the chemical im balances.

    Your on the road to recovery which is the main thing. 

  • kenneth69574
    kenneth69574 jesse36624

    Posted

    dont worry jesse ,youre not allone ,years ago when i was yoing i sufferd the same syndrome, i thought i was going mad, and was ashamed of myself cos iwas worried all the time ,and ididnt know what about, however, it used to mentally exhaust me ,and ireally thought i was going insane, i couldnt bring myself to talk to anyone cos i felt stupid,sounds crazey i know , it was only after a few years passed having this condition ,i researched it ,and to my delight i reallised there were millions of sufferers going through the same hell and reallised i was normal , and felt so rellieved, i then took the matter in my own hands , i reallised i didnt need any medication ,and the actual thought  that this thing wouldnt kill me brought me back ,and it made me very strong mentally,i hope this information helps you x
    • susan63652
      susan63652 kenneth69574

      Posted

      is it true that medication makes anxiety worse thats what my doctor is telling me i feel rock bottom with this cant face going to work dont no what to do please help
    • Aspinan
      Aspinan kenneth69574

      Posted

      Your very lucky Kenneth and I'm so pleased for you, it's only over the last few years that I've realised the same but after two realy bad breakdowns when I first exoerienced anxiety attacks and knew nothing about them and a very unhelpful councillor who I believe now was completely out of her depth set the scene for subsequent episodes. I am learning each time more. I also have an underlying depressive disorder (endogenic depression), which means I am vulnerable to anxiety disorder and reactive deoression as a result. It has to be controlled medically in the same way as diabetes for example, however I acknowledge that that there us much more I can do cognitively which us why I refer myself for CBT when I identify factors and triggers. 
  • plainden
    plainden jesse36624

    Posted

    hi it does take time to kick in but u have to sit it out -i did.I'm on sertraline 50mg.Now 6 weeks on it + feeking good.It has been a slog but worth it to get rid of awful anxiety which came on out of the blue 8 wks ago
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