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My anxiety is not letting me live

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Anichand
Anichand

Hi all,

As I mentioned in my old posts , I do have history of anxiety and depression from more than 10 years.

I was on clonezpam and escitalopram for a year then I discontinued my medication since my doctor thought I was doing fine.

I was fine for more than 6 months ( without medication)

My anxiety started after my MIL started living with us, it is the first time I am living with her and I believe it's the stress which caused the anxiety

Sometime she can be downright rude and so e of her behavior upset me big time so much so that it causes severe anxiety.

During those time, I cannot eat, sleep function... Physically also I suffer so much diarrhea, vomiting, my whole body shake and I feel so scared , so so scared as if all bad things will come to me now.

Like my whole life is nothing but suffering and I cannot get out of it...

It is such a hopeless feeling....

I lived like this for 2 months and then went to my doctor as I could not take it anymore...

She put me on Zoloft 50mg , initially it caused great deal of anxiety, depression , confusion, insomnia, I used to shake so badly...

So my doctor asked me to take 0.5mg of clonezpam , I felt better after that ....

But the affect of clonezpam stays only for couple of days and then again I start getting irritated and then anxiety kicks in...

Even though my mother in law is good to me now, I feel so scared around her sometime ....I do T know why

My mind keep worst situation which might happen in future and I can't snap out of it...

Why this is happening?? Why do I get scared so much??

I try so hard but sometime nothing works....

Can someone please tell me is this anxiety?? If so will it get better....I cannot live like this anymore

Please help me

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  • a-new-day
    a-new-day Anichand

    Posted

    hi you sound like my story:  i do not and never will get along with my mother.  so what i do is to not allow myself to be around here (i dont live with her), and the most she will get from me is a chat on the telephone a few times a year.  she knows that if she complains about this, then it will be no chats or contact at all.

    i take sertraline to be able to live a reasonable life and push away all the damage she did as i grew up.  the thing i have learned is, it doesn't matter what meds i take, because none will allow me to be around her as then the anxiety and depression takes over.

    it sounds like you will be ok, but you have to get away from your MIL.    so either she goes, or you go.   make your choice.   sorry if my advice is a little cold, but i'm just trying to make you see that sometimes when you are in a bad situation, medication isn't going to help and what you really need to do is deal with the situation, so you can stop living in misery.   put yourself first.  that's the first step to getting better.

    • Anichand
      Anichand a-new-day

      Posted

      Hi

      Thanks for your reply.

      Currently I am not in a situation to tell my husband that I cannot live with my MIL. He thinks over time I will get adjusted.

      One good thing is, she is staying with us for one more month then she is going back home but it's clear that after couple of years she will move in with us permanently.

      I don't know what to do....

      I am just hoping that this medicine will work and atleast I stop getting anxious all the time.

      I am so sick of this life...

    • Shed1976
      Shed1976 Anichand

      Posted

      Well hopefully the medication will help but it's important to start putting coping mechanisms into place for when your MIL does come to live with you permanently.

      Good luck x

    • Shed1976
      Shed1976 Anichand

      Posted

      I think CBT could be helpful.

      I'm working on a mind map for my anxiety.

      Also, writing down thoughts that disturb me.

      Hoping it will take away their power.

      They come with low mood.

      Can't upset me when I'm well.

      Good luck ??

    • Anichand
      Anichand Shed1976

      Posted

      Thank you

      I will try your method, let me see if it works

  • Shed1976
    Shed1976 Anichand

    Posted

    Hi,

    I'm sorry to hear you are suffering and really feel for you.

    It definitely sounds like MIL is the cause of your stress, which, over time, will spark your anxiety.

    Stress is extremely dangerous. Even if we think we are coping ok, it can hit us like a tonne of bricks further down the line.

    May I suggest some meditation.

    It sounds like you have become quite unwell though. Perhaps you need to increase your medication.

    I'm guessing there is no alternative to your MIL living with you? Are you able to discuss how you are feeling with your husband?

    Anxiety can and will get better. Please try to be kind to yourself and keep in mind that anyone's MIL coming to live with them would be take time to adjust to.

    Try to take regular time out for yourself. Take some breathing space.

    Hope things improve for you.

    x

    • Anichand
      Anichand Shed1976

      Posted

      Hi

      Thanks for your reply...

      Yes please suggest me some meditation, currently I go to gym regularly also I do some breathing exercises

      It helps a lot.

      It is my 3rd week taking Zoloft , I have my next appointment after New year ...So that time I will talk to my GP about upping my dosage

      Thank you

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