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I've been feeling depressed for 4 years and finally booked a doctors appointment. I asked my boyfriend if he would accompany me because I was so nervous. I mentioned it several times in the past week and text him before asking what time I should pick him up from the train station. He didn't text back or answer my calls , and I had to go without him. He text me in there saying sorry he forgot and that his phone had broke.
Whilst in the doctors I basically had a breakdown, and reeled everything off. The doctor was lovely, referred me for CBT and took some blood tests. She told me to think about whether I'd like to take medication.
When I came out I felt awful after crying, rang him and asked to come over because I felt so bad. He said his friend was coming over and he had to draw some money out for him ( money for weed probably) and I could come up later. I said okay. He rang back asking if tomorrow was okay instead (probably because they're going to spend the night smoking the weed they've just bought) and he'd treat me to dinner. I told him to forget it and he angrily said I was biting his head off and it was just a suggestion. He never once asked how the appointment had been and if i was okay. He's even just text me how he's sorry but he's had a rough day because he's had deadlines at work etc..I've been struggling to cope with life for the past month. Every doctors appointment he's asked me to go to I've been there, giving him a lifts early in the morning.
I feel so unloved and unsupported. I feel like I should be happier I've finally had the strength to move forward but he's just brought me down so much. Any kind words please.
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