My boyfriend is leaving me...
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I am divorced and never thought I would find someone to love and love me back. Yesterday he told me that he loves me, but is no longer interested in being together. We were talking about marriage and children, and it was so reassuring to know I was no longer alone. The rug has been ripped out from under me. I do not like myself when I am alone. I don't know how to learn to like myself. I hate so many things. I do not have the energy, drive, or any reason to bounce back from this....
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paul30710 bexpow
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bexpow paul30710
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I have dated a lot of men since my divorce (probably too many), but I didn't open my heart to any of them. It was just to pass time I guess, and they were all fine with what I gave them. But this one, he asked me to trust and I took a leap of faith and did. And feel hard. It hurts so badly to have someone I trust burn me like this.
anne240 bexpow
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When we have depression everything is so much harder. I know what you mean about liking yourself. Been there, done that.
Sorry I am not much help am I? Just brought back memories for me reading your post. I am so sorry.
You will find the energy and drive, it just takes time to bounce back. I have done it. Honestly you will get back to your old self. You will hopefully meet someone else who will make you happy. Wish I had.
bexpow anne240
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I have no drive, no spark, no interest in things. How do you find something you never have had?
deaver bexpow
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Relationships are never easy. Give and take as long as you're not always doing just the giving. I suppose we all have unfair expectations of each other and maybe thats the problem. Being totally honest and open with someone is a fantasy, there are always things we keep to ourselves, sometimes for the best, sometimes not. I guess it's what you want from a relationship that counts. We all want to be loved, that's natural. But companionship kicks in at some point and I think maybe that's what you need at present. Someone to share time with, someone you can talk to and have listen, someone to care about you? Do you have any family or close friends that you can spend time with in this way?
bexpow deaver
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I am lacking on the companionship part. I moved to this town, which is four hours away from my family and friends, eight months ago and aside from my boyfriend, don't have any family or close friends. Plenty of acquiantances, I have those in abundance. But with the depression it is hard to get to know people on a deeper level, on a level I can rely and care about them. I have people to hang out with occasionally on a Friday night. But not much more.
deaver bexpow
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If you feel so alone there, are you in a position to move back nearer to your family and friends?
Opening up and getting close to people is difficult at the best of times and it's made worse when you have been treated this way. I really feel for you, and hope you can find an answer.
Keep us posted. Message me if you'd prefer, I wouldn't mind.
Take care.