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I have been with my partner for almost 6 years and he suffers with depression. About 4 years ago he had a melt down and we did get through that, he said he felt numb and low but we stayed together and soldiered on. We have had the best relationship I could describe and we are so perfect together, however a few months ago I started to notice he was edgy and snappy at small things, last week I asked him if he was still happy and he admitted the depression has returned, this time he’s said he doesn’t know how he feels anymore and I’m absolutely broken 💔 he admitted he’d stopped taking his medication in December as he said he didn’t want to be on anti depressants anymore, He said he weaned off them, after much persuasion he agreed to go back on them and also go to see his G.P. he moved out on Wednesday as we agreed he needed head space, we spoke on the phone and via text and it was comforting for both of us. On Saturday he wanted us to see each other so I agreed (far too early I now know) we Had an amazing night and didn’t discuss anything, he was completely at ease and stayed the night! On the Sunday I could tell he was anxious and so was I which wasn’t helping either of us, he decided he was going back home and got slightly upset and asked what we’re going to do if his feelings don’t return, I told him we’re trying to do the right thing by having space and what’s meant to be will be but I’m here as I love this man with all my being.
He now tells me he thinks he doesn’t love me anymore, I haven’t spoke to him since yesterday at all and it’s breaking me apart. I have 3 children and he took them on and was a Fantastic step parent but he also says he doesn’t know if he took too much on with me and my girls, when we talk he constantly says how he’s suffering and how he’ll have nothing if he lets me go. I pray with all my being it’s the depression talking, he’s questioning wether he’s depressed because he doesn’t love me or talking this way because he’s depressed, he more or less said I’m an added pressure to sorting his head out, he was the most caring considerate human being befor all this. I am trying my best to be strong for my kids but I’m torn so badly. Broken hearts really do suck! 😢
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