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I have been off work for 4 weeks now, due to work stressing me out yet again.
I am currently waiting for OH Assist to contact my GP for a medical report for my work, in all honesty i am not fit for my work anymore, my ups and downs are far more frequent now, and my life is at rock bottom, i am taking 150 Mg Sertraline and now 7.5 mg sleeping tablets to help me sleep at night, my head is buzzing at the minute, so much tension, it's awful.
I have suffered all my life, i don't have happy school days, I was never there, I have been in and out of work all my life, even though I have had 4 lovely houses , nice cars, holidays abroad , but now it's getting alot worse and far more frequent, I honestly just want to go to sleep at night and hope i don't wake up.
I cannot see my future ever picking up or getting better, and to look at me you would never realise. I am a kind hearted lovely guy, but I have a awful temper due to my upbringing, and it clashes with my depression.
I have stopped seeing friends for years, people think I am a crazy hot head, but deep down I am so torn inside.
I feel for all of you with this illness, its soul destroying.
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