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Before I begin I would first like to point out that it is always a good idea to get some professional help to take a look at any symptoms you are experiencing. Anxiety is a powerful thing, but you should NEVER right it off your self. Go to a doctor first, and if they find you are ok, then you are ok.
I am writing this post (forgive me if this is long) to help my self and perhaps help you as well if you are suffering from Anxiety. I am not requesting help, but instead providing it. Listen to my story, and my symptoms and maybe this will put your mind at easy.
Warning: this will be long.
First let me get my >fear< out of the way. Make no mistake, this is a fear and not symptoms because I have no symptoms, it is all in my mind. Just like anyone else with axiety. My big bad fear? Rabies. For the past 36 days I have been convinced that I have had rabies, and now I have a side effect of this fear called Globus Sensation, (fear of something in your throat) which also triggered my fear of rabies symptoms. Before we continue, let me point out something very clear.
IF I HAD RABIES FOR REAL I'D BE DEAD. No ifs, or buts. I fear because Globus Sensation has given me the fear of my throat not being able to swallow that it is linked to Rabies, but If that was true I would already be in the hospital saying good bye to loved ones. Why? Because once the major symptoms of rabies starts to appear you have between 4 to 10 days to live before things get really messed up. I have had Globus sensation for 6 days now and I still drink, eat, and laugh all the same. GLOBUS SENSATION is a direct link to stress and anixety, case closed on that matter.
Now to continue with what I was saying before. This all started one day when I cooked a steak for my wife and her mother that was over for dinner with us. Peppercorn Steak to be exact. When I was eating my steak, I noticed mine was a bit more runny than the others (my steak was a bit bigger in the center) so I had a bit of blood in it, no biggy right? I cooked the sucker in perfect temperature so you would think my mind would be at ease right? Nope, infact when I saw what I had been eating my mind said, "Oh man, this has rabies." That was it, that was my down fall. I have suffered from anxiety before in my life but never like this.
QUICK INFO TIDBIT! :" Rabies can not be transferred by blood, feces, urine or anything else. It can ONLY be transmitted by saliva from a bite, or saliva that has entered a wound you have on your body. In VERY RARE cases, it can enter your body through your nose but this is again VERY RARE. It can not be given to you from meat from an animal. Only infected brain tissue."
So I suffered with this panic attack that I was going to have rabies at some point down the road, even though it was impossible. Eating meat from an infected animal it self is not even enough to give you rabies unless you are eating brain matter for some reason. 5 or so days passed before something major happened that made my fear even stronger. A wild cat in our neighbourhood was hit by a car. It was a sad day, and I volunteered to move the poor animal to the side of the road with protected hands by a cloth. After moving the animal I washed my hands fully and spent the night with my upset wife.
After a couple days my anxiety was starting to loose the fight with the rabies fear because too much info was popping up about how impossible it really was to get from meat. So it found a new strength....the dead cat. May I remind you this homeless cat was our friend. It ate at everyones house on the block. It loved wet food and infact it had some wet food the day of his death. This cat was perfectly healthy and perfectly normal before he met his sad end. But my mind did not care. It does not care to this day, 36 days later, that it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to have rabies. I live in Canada as well, and there has only been around 25 cases of human rabies since 1924 ! And they were all from either raccoons or bats. Not even a single cat. In fact in most places of the world, Bats are the main reason why people get rabies, followed by dogs and raccoons.
That was not enough and IS not enough for my brain to realize I do not have rabies.
You read that correctly...I still suffer from this anxiety. Though a few moments ago I said...no.....no more. Anxiety will not have my mind with out a fight. I WILL FIGHT IT. I WILL take control of MY mind again. That is what I want to share with you all. FIGHT IT...for the love of what ever you believe in. This is an attack on your mind. Your worst fears are given life by the power of your brain. If it can be used to make your body emulate symptoms of what ever you fear, then it can be used to correct it.
Right now, I have tingling and slight numbness in my arms, along with globus sensation. I have my anxiety symptoms and my stress symptoms joining forces to attack my mind and body but I will hold my ground. You better believe I have put my foot down.
What I am currently doing to help my self:
- I am starting to mediate, with breathing excersizes to help my anxiety.
- When ever my anxiety starts to whisper in my ear, I firmly say in my mind, NO. Just simply, NO. No I do not, no you are wrong, no..no...NO!
- Stop researching online. You are not helping your self, you are helping the anxiety. It WANTS you to read things online because it NEEDS more information to use against you. GO TO A DOCTOR!
Join me, tell me your fear, your anxiety.
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