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My Health anxiety consumes me a daily

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mike996
mike996

Everyday I have something new I worry about. I always assume that whatever symptom I am currently feeling will evolve into something sinister that I won't be able to handle. I am a medically cleared 20 year old male who has been assured countless times by my doctor that I am OK. Here are some things I go through on a daily basis....

1. My eyes give me alot of problems. I was told by 2 optometrists that I have excellent vision but I am farsighted so my eyes kind of have to adjust to fine details and things nearby which strains my eye from focusing in and out constantly. The main problem is the blurred type of hazy vision that flows over my eyes. Some days its really bad and I can feel a moist type feeling kind of consume over my eye and cause it to blur which gets me real anxious because I start to panic and have to constantly blink until my eye clears up. 1 doctor told me I have poor tear duct quality (dry eyes) but the other one told me my eyes aren't dry just strained. Now I don't know what to believe but they told me they don't see anything that could be causing an issue. My fear is that my eyes will progressively worsen to the point where I can't see and this causes me immense anxiety to the point where I become very nauseated and can't continue what I am doing or my mood suddenly changes because when I feel the blur come upon my eye my mind goes straight to the worst thoughts...

2. My brain... I have had a brain tumour fear the entire time I have had health anxiety. I have constant aches and pains around my head. Sometimes it's a certain spot on the head that hurts, other times its a really bad headache all around. Sometimes I get sharp shooting pains and other times its just a dull ache. This ofcourse throws me off during the day as well because I assume something in my brain is growing and it scares the lights out of me. Then I start to think my eyes and head symptoms could be caused by something like a tumour and I get real anxious. For the past 2 days I spend obsessed with 2 spots on my head that hurt to the touch when by my surprise I uncovered a pimple growing on the skin which was a huge sense of relief because I knew the pain was being caused by that rather then something sinister but if I can't find the cause immediately I panic. I had a clean brain MRI with contrast come clear 9 months ago which is lucky because not everyone can just get a brain scan whenever and I got one but I still feel like I need another one since its been this long which I know you might think sounds crazy but whenever I get all these kinds of pains in the head and eyes I start to panic and feel phantom symptoms like dizziness and other neurological symptoms.

3. I have to constantly clear my throat because I feel like my voice has changed in the past couple months and I can't make the same sounds or hit the same notes I could only a little while ago. How can my vocal change when im already 20? Like I sound the same but I can't hit the same sounds. This makes me worry about cancer in the throat and I keep thinking I have a bump or lump growing in the neck when its just my adams apple and I have to constantly check to assure myself im ok. I feel like I exert more air when I say things and I get worried why my voice is changing or why I get stabbing pains behind my throat during the day.

There is so much more my mind goes through on a daily basis but this is just a summary of how my days are spent living in fear.

Because of this my body goes through myoclonus when it feels stressed before I sleep and my muscles start to flinch/shake/contract and Its hard to get into a healthy sleep cycle cuz my mind starts to work against me and I fear I have a disease and the muscle jerking will progress..

Sorry about this much writing but I am just trying to show how health anxiety is consuming me on a daily basis. What steps can I take BESIDES medication because I am already talking to my doctor about this.. What can I do besides medication to help put my fears to ease so I can go about my daily life without fear of a progressive illness..

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  • denice33774
    denice33774 mike996

    Posted

    I am sorry you are going thru this. I myself suffer from health anxiety. As i am writing this, i am convinced that i have the following: melanoma, lymphoma and breast cancer. So i know how difficult it must be for you. I have tried therapy in my 20s which helped a little bit. Breathing exercises. And i am also lucky to have family around me. I am like you. I do not want medications but unfortunately my body and mind can only take so much. I gave in and took what the doctors gave me. A low dose of xanax and lexapro which works wonders for me. All the aches and pains are slowly fading away now that my body is relaxed. Talk to your doctor for non medicinal approach that is how i get started. And also keep an open mind to everything (easier said than done trust me). I am still suffering from health anxiety but at least it doesnt consume me anymore. My mom and dad use to tell me we are all gonna die someday and we are on borrowed time, just take it a day at a time and always tell yourself im not gonna die today... Not gonna die today. Keeping you in my thoughts. Hope you feel better.
    • hollee26189
      hollee26189 denice33774

      Posted

      I'm about to start lexapro on Monday after I get this lovan out of my system. I hope it works well for me

    • denice33774
      denice33774 hollee26189

      Posted

      Hi hollee, lexapro evens me out. It keeps me mostly calm and thinking rationally but I still have moments of panic thats when the xanax comes in. There are days that i do not need the xanax just lexapro.
  • jenni101183
    jenni101183 mike996

    Posted

    Hi Mike I currently have the eye blur symptoms and all the head symptoms now I've been having these symptoms for about 7 months Noe I to have seem the eye doctor twice for two different opinions they both said my visions is great and I have dry eyes and to get some drops called Tears or something , and I've had a MRI of my brain and head with contrast about 10 months ago and all.was clear. But I'm still experiencing all head symptoms and eye and visions blur to where I have to blink a few times to clear my focus.

  • Melly79
    Melly79 mike996

    Posted

    Far out this sounds like me I have just started medication and it has helped although I think I will need to increase my dose soon I'm on day 5 and got up this morning and have started to excersize again and am hoping it will help me get through all of this I don't want to be like this forever none of us do. I had a really good nights sleep then last night back to the same as you described the muscle nervousness I am also long sighted and look at computers all day and have now booked an appointment to see optometrist about getting prescription glasses for my job. For now I just have the most compatible from the chemist. I hope you can get through this as do I. I really want to start to enjoy life without all these worries!!!

  • 33cody
    33cody mike996

    Posted

    I am going through all the same feelings with my head and also convinced I have some ailment in there and it absolutely terrifes me, I've had a ton of blood and urine tests all came back good. It all started as I felt sick and then a day or two later I got so much pressure in the back of my head then the headaches and fogginess and dizziness feeling constantly for month and a half before I finally went to the dr, he told me it was anxiety and I didn't believe that but took the medicine and I actually did start to feel somewhat better but the fogginess and dizziness feeling has never left for more than a cpl hours at a time but then a cpl days ago it got worse again and added some symptoms with it lol I talked to me dr and he increase my dose and I'm on day 2 hopefully This does the trick otherwise I'm coming off the med s totally and going to have to see the neurologist which I'm also scared to death of, I'm about 4 months total dealing with this crap and just plain sick of it and ready to be me again and absolutely don't want there to be anything more wrong then anxiety as this enough lol. I do know anxiety was a certainly a problem for me as the medication did help to get me to about 70% before the wall I hit and it wouldn't of helped if the anxiety wasn't present so that's a good thing to think about it and makes it less likly I have something seriously wrong with my brain so for the long winded reply it's just to nice to be able to get it out there sometimes and get others opinions esp from those currently experiencing very similar things

  • Willy75608
    Willy75608 mike996

    Posted

    Hi Mike. I have the eye blur and focus issues too. I am nearsighted but the blur comes and goes at any distance. As I sit here writing the letters are going from clear to blurry and back. This has been going on for 6 months. I have been to several eye doctors and they said my eyes look great. I also have issues with lights where things look like there is a ghost image next to them. This is my first battle with anxiety and my doctor said it will go away when my body calms down. Just hard to believe anxiety is causing all of this.

    Wish you well.

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