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I'm 36 years old I married a wonderful man full of life at the age of 30 (he's the same age as me) after we married my life went down hill he became violent towards me and he became depressed.
He tried to hang himself and he has cut his wrists.
He doesn't know why he feels like this and I have tried everything.
He has a consillor and he is on medication and he has said it was his job that made him so unhappy.
I helped him get a new job and I'm so proud of him he had his first interview in 12 years and he got the job straight away.
He was over weight and he lost 3 stone I thought things would get better but they haven't they just get worse.
I feel like I'm living with a ticking time bomb and I have lost all of my confidence and self esteem all my time is focused on him and his feelings.
Last night I felt like ending it all.
I'm unemployed at the moment and I'm at the age where everyone asks why we have been married so long and had no children. I can't bring children into the world with his illness.
I'm now seen in my family as the childless weirdo and I'm crumbling fast.
I was always so strong before.
The strange thing about it all is I've had an awful upbringing my mother was drug addict and my Dad had PTSD ex military but I have forgiven both of my parents for all the stuff I went through and my husband was an only child and grew up with everything he wanted yet he is so ill.
Can anyone relate I feel so alone and nobody understands why I stand by him but when I said in sickness and on health I ment it.
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