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So I want to tell my story about my IBS because I'm stuck and don't know what to do anymore so please, please don't judge me and take this seriously.
It might be a bit long I will try my best to keep it as short as possible.
I am currently 15 years old, in April 2015 I has off school for a half a week with a stomach bug causing me to have really bad diarrhoea. The week after when I was back at school my stomach was still hurting. A couple weeks later after half term I went back to school but every single morning it felt like I needed to poop but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't. On weekends I got up later at around 11 am and then at that time I could poop. I basically found out that every morning it felt like I needed toilet but I couldn't go until around 11 am. It was horrible but nothing compared to how I am now.
It got slightly better around June, July time then during my 6-7 weeks off school for summer I was mostly ok because I got up later. Problem was that towards the end of the holiday I went to stay in London for half a week and whilst I was there I was getting up early again. Now this is where I made a weird mistake. When I got to the hotel room after a day of not going I went but it was really hard and no matter how much I wiped it wasn't cleaning (I've been using baby wipes to wipe since around the start of 2015). For some stupid reason I decided to try and stick my finger covered in a wipe inside to see if I could get what was left out, please don't judge me I know it's weird and not normal but please listen. I realised at that point how unclean the inside is and ever since then I've been addicted to wiping inside because I know how unclean it is and I'm scared of it potentially leaking out. I will say now I have generalised anxiety disorder and slight OCD and I am receiving therapy to help me. Well I had some kind of diarrhoea on that trip but it wasn't too bad but ever since then I've cleaned inside. Please don't judge me it's a real problem.
I started school again in September and well it was still bad, the thing where I couldn't go in a morning was no longer happening but I don't like going in a morning because I just don't have time. I normally went when I got home from school and would stay there for an hour plus and every day it was different, either constipation or diarrhoea. Throughout October I got some small piles and after multiple doctors appointments I used different creams that worked. I tried a bunch of different tablets to try and fix my awful bowels but nothing helped I tried everything from buscopan to mebeverine and nothing worked. Sometimes there was blood from the piles or anal fissures.
In December I went to Russia on a school trip. Just before that when I was wiping I noticed some weird mucus type stuff towards the end of wiping and I wasn't emptying my entire bowels at once I was going multiple times. Whilst in Russia the poor food made it worse, over Christmas it didn't get much better and it got to a point where I was spending 3 hours in the toilet going multiple times every day. Since I started back in school in the new year it has gotten to an all time worst. Every morning when I get up my stomach hurts and I can hear gas gurgling in my rectum not my stomach but I'm scared to fart incase I follow through.
Ever morning I need to go it no longer feels like I need to go now I have to go and because I don't have the time to spend hours on the toilet going multiple times in a morning I hold it in all day which is awful. When I do go it's normally very lose and I still go multiple times and this mucus stuff is there when I'm wiping. It's sticky and weird. I've tried laxatives to empty my bowel all at once and it didn't work, I've tried probiotics they just made it worse. My doctor has referred me to a pedestrian at the hospital who I will see in April but until then I don't know how I'm supposed to cope, I'm really stressed out with my GCSEs and I don't get much sleep on school days and I waste hours everyday on the toilet in pain.
A couple weeks ago I was off school because I went toilet 15 times in one day but it was diarrhoea, it looked as if I'd gone for the first time every time, I was pooping so much and had no idea why. I had blood tests and the only things they found is slightly high level of chemicals in my liver. Whilst I was off school last week for half term I was going toilet twice a day, I was going around 2 am and 2 pm and both times I would be there for two hours.
I'm back at school now and I don't have the time to spend so long at the toilet. I'm going so much over and over again and it's ruining my life. I just want a way to cope until I go to the hospital, someone please help me find a way to cope. The mucus now leaks slightly if I don't clean the inside so until I stop that happening I can't break my habit of cleaning inside. Please help me how do I cope it's a living hell for me for hours every single day.
I'm really sorry this is so long but I need help desperately. Thanks for reading.
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