My panic and anxiety has come back after 30 years. I have severe agoraphobia for 4 months.

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It is like I am being tortured all day and most of the night. I just can't stand it anymore. I want to escape from it or run away from it but there is nowhere to go. I can't listen to music I can't watch TV I am never relaxed or feel tired. I started 25 mg of Surmontil almost 2 weeks ago and I take 4 mg if Ativan for 30 years. Please someone help. I need all the replies I can get. My Psychiatrist suggested shock treatments if I don't respond to Medication. Please I need all the replies I can get. I am s very strong person. My severely handicapped daughter died in my arms 6 years ago. I can't even go to work! I want my life back. But it seems to be going further and further away from me

I get these weird feelings and the physical manifestation of this depression is horrible. I just can't take the torture anymore. Someone HELP

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     I am 54-year-old female I feel your pain I have severe anxiety and I have symptoms that they tell me are there but I hear and feel them zapping in my head tingling at the back of my head very odd sensations  i'm very sorry for your loss I can't even imagine your pain please don't give up ,have you ever tried Lexapro I have tried every medication out there and Lexapro is the only one that has started to help me  i've been on it for five weeks and I haven't cried everyday for at least 5 days  I was also able to sleep for four hours straight I think what I'm trying to say is please don't give up keep trying medication to find the one that works for you you are not alone I don't think anyone knows how very scary and isolating it can be ,God bless and hang in there

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      i have tried several anti deps and just my body wont cope with them.  Leaving mirtazapine soon and wonder if Lexapro would help my anxiety with depression.  The mirtazapine gives bad nightmares, left feeling terrible.  Have you tried mirtazapine, its a terror to get off. I would ask psych for lexapro if i felt it might work. Your thoughts are welcome
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     First of all I am so sorry for your loss and I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time you are not alone I have been sick on and off for the last four years I think I’ve cried every day I can’t sleep sometimes I can’t eat I told doctors I feel like I’m dying I have sounds of fluid in the back of my head the sides of my face have fluid  they all tell me I have anxiety ,I have started on Lexapro five weeks ago and I think this is the first time in the last 4 to 5 days I haven’t cried and I actually was able to get some sleep  I went to the doctors and she said why don’t you give this medicine a chance so I am and I think it’s starting to work so when I think I’m trying to say is don’t give up Keep going to find the right medicine for you you’re not alone and I am praying for you God bless
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    II’m I’m sorry  for your loss I also have physical manifestation from  my depression and anxiety I hear popping and fluid moving in my head and fizzing sounds it’s turture,I  wish I had a magic wand and I could make you feel better I truly am sorry for your pain and your loss I don’t know what I can do to help you from here but if you need to talk or vent I’m here god bless 
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    It is torture. Does your Ativan help you at all?  You've been on it for 40 years?  Keep trying. My meds are not helping me lately. Just the Ativan. I take 1.5 mg per day.  God bless. I wish I had an answer for you and for me. ??

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      i have tried several anti deps, now stuck on mirtazapine and diazepam and lowering anti dep but getting horrendous nightmares of not being here.  Dont know whether to increase my anti dep or take another benzo, i think i am in tolerance to them as they dont seem to be working like before.
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      Thanks for your help.  I am having such issues with stomachnacid and nausea that some days are bad, others its just the anxiety and I think i am depressed a bit but it lifts by evening, how are you?
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      Hi Ann it so good to hear from you, I was having a lot of problems with acid last year it was really bad..I didn’t get any sleep couldn’t eat, felt really sick all the time,  doc sent me for camera down.. but every thing was ok it was the anxiety that was doing it... I am not saying that is what is upsetting your stomach and always best to get it checked.. but I was so sure mine was something else it was that bad... anxiety can really upset your body and how it works, one of the first thinks with me is my stomach...and meds can upset you and course acid .. do hope it all settles for you soon Ann.. I have not been bad the last couple of days still mornings are bad but ones I am up I feel better so hopefully I am turning a corner.. sending hugs your way Ann.. please let me know how you are doing thinking of you 🤗

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      Hi Ann how are you doing would be nice to hear from you ... 
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      Hi, hope you will now. Feel better.

      i have been battling a root canal abscess and not winning.  Feel terribble on top of all other things.  The antiibiotics make you sick.  If it fails tooth comes oit but as i am warfarin i need specialist treatment.

      waaiting till this dealt with before i see how i am.

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      Aww no something else to deal with Ann... it is good to hear from you, I was wondering how you are... no heard from Babss for a long time.. I do hope you get sorted out with your tooth, abscess are nasty things, and antibiotics are as well, keep in touch Ann sending hugs your way....
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      Hi Edwina here, thanks for post. How are you. Haven't been on much, just flicked through, hope you are ok? Been really busy, but good thing as keeps my mind occupied, had good time up at Scotland, visiting my dad he adds to my anxiety, bless him, I worry about him as he's on his own and getting on in years, but then I worry about everything, my hubby is the exact opposite😊, how are you feeling lately? Wish Babbs would let us know she's ok. Hope no news is good news? 😊??

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      Are you still having anxiety when you wake up.  

      I am now having it waking in night too, its getting me down.

      have you got any med to help?

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      Hi Edwina, I am not so bad at the minute seem to be doing ok touch wood... glad you enjoyed your time in Scotland.. iam just the same Edwina worry about everyone and everything.. yes my husband is just the same nothing bothers him at all, what I would give to be like I if only a little bit would help haha...yes I wish we would hear how Babbs is..take care keep in touch ☺️
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      Hi Ann, it’s good to hear from you... no I am doing ok at the minute, I stoped the diazepam they were just making me worse I just could not rest sleep and mornings are always the worst time for me and they were just making thinks much much worse... keep intouch Ann take care ☺️
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      Sorry Ann how are you doing with your abscess hopefully all is well with that ..
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      Hi Ann hope you are ok... wondering if you are any better... I woke this morning with bad anxiety hope it’s not all starting again... sending hug to you take care... 🙃

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      Just the same here. Anxiety on wake up and now stomach problems.  Will see dr this week. Any news of Babbs
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      Hi Ann... it’s never ending is it there is always something... are you still having problems with acid... how are you with the abscess? Not heard any think from Babbs do hope she is ok.. I was not doing bad then woke up last 2 morning with bad anxiety errr...take care Ann and keep In touch let me know how you get on at docs ..☺️
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      Morning Ann wondering how you are getting on.. hope you are feeling better... not hearing from any one.. I am still haveing bad anxiety in the morning, it does get better as the day goes on... how is you going with the abscess is that any better... 🙃

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      Hi Edwina hope you are well... plenty of snow hear, the bears are out hehe...  not heard from Babbs do hope she is ok... hope to hear from you soon take care... 🙃

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      Hi there, glad you're ok. Really snowing up north. Stuck indoors with hubby( I may go insane)😊. No word from Babbs, pray she is ok. Does your anxiety start as soon as you wake? Mine used to, had to get up and put tv on , make a drink etc, even if it was5am, if I laid there it just got worse as I noticed every little thing, heart racing, shaking, etc, then my thoughts would race, always got better as day went on especially by evening, such an annoying illness. I just try to keep mind active and push myself to go out tell myself I can sometimes feel rotten but it comes and goes and it won't beat me. Hope you have a good day, love watching the snow, looks lovely but flipping cold😊??

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      Hi Edwina I can relate to that, I am also stuck in with my hubby hehe...I do hope Babbs is ok... yes mornings are always bad for me mind races never stops till I get out of bed like you say... I do have my little hobbies but sometimes it’s so hard... I do push myself but you will know where I am coming from with that... I have a dolls house been doing it a few year

      now but I love it it can be expensive but I don’t mind it will be a lovely heirloom one day... I also do a bit of sawing making rag dolls at the minute..do a bit off dress making as well... I do try and keep busy... my garden is looking really pretty at the mo...I love sitting in conservatory looking at it.. I do think I will stay in today haha... take care speak soon, sending warm hugs ☃️

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      Hi Edwina hope you are well... doesn’t seem to be any one around now.... hope you see this Edwina would be nice to hear from you.. I have been very down again but hopefully on my way back to some normality now ... never heard from Babbs or Ann do wonder how they both are... take care Edwina 🙃

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      Hi Edwina do hope you are well ... would be nice to hear from you. There has been nothing from Ann are Babss pray every one is ok hugs to all ...🙃

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      Hi. I'm still out here, just read through every now and then, saw your post. How have you been? How's anxiety at moment? Are you keeping busy, know you have hobbies, how's dolls house coming along? . Great for keeping your mind occupied. Weathers been so bad here but managing to get out and try and keep busy, hope you are well.😊??

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      Hi Edwina, Its nice to hear from you, I am ok it’s my head that’s not..not very good at the mo mornings are really bad for me.. trying to keep busy just can’t concentrate on much but keep trying... hope you are doing alright, I have just been a walk on my own which is a achievement on its own.. my mind just won’t rest at all... weather horrible.. we are going for a weeks cruise round canaries next week, with my daughter and grand kids ... that is going to make me feel better I am determined fingers crossed ...stay well Edwina 🙃??

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      Hi Edwina hope you are well just haveing a quick look round, see if any one is about...We had a good week away in the sun 🌞 it really does help feeling better hopefully it lasts a bit longer than last time... not heard from Babss or Ann do hope they are ok... take care Edwina hope to hear from you now and again that would be really lovely 😊 

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      Hi Edwina do hope you see my post would love to hear from you ... not seen anything from Babss are Ann do hope they are well ... weather is a lot better now than when we last spoke ... I have not been bad the last few weeks may be thinks are looking up for me I hope ... still have bad mornings, think I am learning to cope better with that ( can’t say the same for my husband) bless him he does put up with a lot from me ... hope to hear from you soon Edwina sending big hugs ..🙂

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      HI edwina hope you see this...hope you are well ...would be lovely to hear how you are ...

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      hi i am still here and still not fixed. many trials of a.d.s but cannot find anything tomshift my anxiety depression. how are you managing it

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      hi ann its so good to hear from you, i am up and down all the time, i will keep going just need to be ok again ... we have to stay strong ann its very hard i some times think i cannot go on but we have to ...i am very sad and lonely today ..i am hear if you need to talk ann do not know if i can help you, but it good for me to know there is someone there that knows how we are feeling ..sending big hugs ann

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      what a nice reply. i do understand and am always here too if you need to talk. are you in uk? At moment im in between anti deps what are yountaking ?

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      hi ann yes its so good to have some one to talk to that understands.. i am on fluoxetine ...not that it help but doc says it does ummm, and i take diazapan of and on ....yes i am in the UK are you i am near sheffield ..

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      i dont think dr understands me at all. i am not allowed fluoxetine due to interaction with other drug. i am up north.

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      I say my doctors dont understand ann . . and i truly belive that, i think its hard work for them to deal with (its some think they cannot see or feel ) they dont have time for us .. .. fluoxetini dont think does me much good docs say it does take the edge off but i beg to differ on that one i have this horrible fear that never seems to go away..

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      yes, i have this fear thing, wont leave me. dr asked me what i was afraid of, i cant tell him! He asked if i was agoraphobic, no, claustrophobic,,no, then just push through the fear! Drs dont understand do they. my christmas wish is they all,get this illness and see how they could deal with it, sitting there in their cushy little,lives.

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      what a good idir @ ann yes i dont wish it on eny one... but yes that would be a good way to go

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      what a good idea Ann ... yes i think that could work well ...i dont wish it on any one i really dont, that said if they just had a day of feeling like it or even one hour, they may just understand what its like ....

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      hi ann how are you doing today ?

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      Hi Ann hope christmas has been ok for you ...i know it can be very trying this time of year... i have had to keep going which i supose has been a good thing for me keeps my mind of me .... i would like to wish you and fellow sufferes a very happy healthy new year ope we all find some peace .. sending bug hugs Ann ...

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