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Like so many of you iam new to this and very desperate for some advice.Ive been with my partner for 3 years .we have been friends for 20 years and 17 years ago he was told he had bipolar.so when we got together i new he had bipolar and we fell head over heels in love enjoying all that life could offer us .i had just come out of a marrage so my partner took me under his wing and looked after me with so much love ,something i had never had before,he had a few episodes but nothing i couldnt cope with he wasn't taking any meds at the time ,saying
he didnt need it . This christmas things started to change i could see he was struggling as he has his own buisness and winter time its quiet,i could understand how hard it was sitting at home alone was starting to drain him ,all his inthusiasum had gone ,not wanting to do a thing just sitting on sofa all day becoming more low .the lows i could cope with but then the mania started ,no sleep for 2 days being completly obsessed with starting a new buisness one that would make him sucsessful ! he was on the computer for hours and hours on end sorting it out ,i talked him into going in hospital because i was so concerned for his mental state he was taken in for 6 days what a joke that was no meds given as he said no to them ,then they sent him home .Things didnt get any better he was hyper again and went off out i was worried sick then he told me he was driving around for the day i had had enough living on the edge i told him i couldnt and wouldnt watch him press his self distruct button anymore it was over.next day phone call saying sorry i cant live life without you .he is a very loving caring man .we went back to hospital to get him on meds ,thank the lord,.He picked up starting to look forward to the summer and we had a break booked to amsterdam .at one point he said not sure its a good idea us going which to be honest i thought the same .anyway there was a mix up with his prescription and the doctor wouldnt give it him ,so he went the weekend with no meds and then the hyper started laying the euros on the bed and telling me how to spend it when we are away this went on for 2 hours then showing me how to use the camera he stayed up for 2 nights again walking the dog for 3 hours in the pooring rain. anyway to cut a long story short he went to the hospital all hyper and demanded his meds because we where going to amsterdam in the morning.no way are you going they said we need you in hospital so he went back in .
i went in to see him and was shocked how he was so so abusive to me saying it was my fault he didnt go away and he has wanted to go for 15 years ,because i had said we cant go unless you get the meds .he said he would never of gone the hospital and he recons he was just excited to go away not hyper !!! he got up and walked back in the ward he wouldnt come back .I called the hospital yesterday and told them what he was like with me they asked him if i could go and see him and he said no.
Iam heart broken and confused i havent done anything wrong only loved this man with all my heart .family have said dont go for a while but i dont know if we are over ,whats going on with his care ,or even where he is going to go when he comes out .He looked like he hated me .i miss him so much and now iam sitting at home on my own going crazzy with worrie.anyone help
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