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Thought I'd come on here to see how things are for others. Sometimes it manages to brighten my own mood, but not today. Things have been up n down for a while, and although I get good days they never last and quite frankly, recently there's more bad than good.
This week just seems to have completely spiralled downhill at such a rapid speed. I never even saw it coming! I had a full breakdown during a meeting at work and now have a senior boss telling me I ought to see a counsellor. Been there done it. NO HELP! I'm pill popping to no avail. I mean, I've had my meds (which contain a strong sedative) and yet I'm still sitting here doing this, some good eh? I don't want pity, or anyone telling me it'll get better, I just want a rant I guess.
I'd love to open up fully and discuss everything that life has thrown my way but what's the point? You can't change the past and I don't want anyone saying they understand but really judging me when they haven't been there or gone threw it.
Right now I hate myself, I hate the world, and if I didn't wake up tomorrow it would be a blessing. No doubt I'll eventually level back out til the next time, so for now I'll end by saying thanks for listening/reading this.
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