My thoughts are actually causing my diseases.
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i am really worried that i cant control my mind. i am not sure if i have OCD or some other brain disorder. but i have had it since long. I keep on thinking about a disease until I actually get it. I dont deliberately do it, I despise such thoughts. but i feels like my mind has its own voice and keeps on reminding me that i will catch that disease because i am a human and i can get any disease. i got my breathing problem that same way. i was watching tv and saw a person using asthma pump. i told myself i will never want such kind of issues in my life. but after few years i got lung infection and since then my brain has not left me without saying every single day that i have asthma, its been 10years i had lung infection. i have been denied by many doctors that i dont have it. and haven't used any pump till now. but i feel that i am not able breath properly.
I have already struggled with hiv infection fear for last 4 years. now i am facing other fear that i will catch vitiligo.
i am in absolute distress and tired of fighting with my mind. is here anyone who can help. sorry for long rant.
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justdone newhopes123
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dear new hope,
Please don't think that you are alone in this. I have done this for many of years and sometimes still do. It can get better. I stopped listening to the ads about health concerns and medications. they are the worst anyways. then I tell myself that I am ok and not sick over and over. I would give myself a certian amount of time before I would call the doctor. Its all about retraining your brain to think positively. I go to a CBT class that helps. I also put stickers on the mirror when I get ready in the morning I can remind myself with positive thoughts about myself. such as I am not sick. if you want get you a O2 censer thru amazon if it is above 90 it means that you are getting enough oxygen. it might help you from obsessing over it. I hope this helps.