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Oh I hate perimenopause. I slept a whole 2 hours to wake at 2am so nauseous and sick to my stomach. A horrible odor filled the room that I couldn’t identify although I glanced at my husband with suspicion. It felt like I was pregnant again but I know that is not possible as I am almost 49!
I was quietly suffering without waking anyone up to keep me company. I decided to use a bit of air freshener to cover the smell in my bedroom. I hadn’t turned on the lights at this point … so I accidentally sprayed my face and eyes with air freshener. I stumbled into the bathroom to wash my now burning eyes and switched on all the lights. I could not fall back asleep after this! I googled my way through my lonely night for the next 2 hours avoiding any bad news or rare diseases that may explain my condition.
I opened all the windows and turned on two fans. I eyed my husband with little love in my heart as he slept blissfully through all of this. I fell asleep for only an hour around 4am only to wake even sicker. And what was that horrible smell?
Finally, I was leaning over my husband sniffing his arms and face. He opened his eyes which were filled with glowing hope …. hopeful that I had woken in up in the “mood”. The look faded as I quizzed him about what he ate before he came to bed. He admitted nothing….. and fell back asleep during my interrogation. All lights on in the room, computer glowing, windows open and fans blowing. How can he sleep?! It isn’t fair.
I ate dry crackers and sipped juice in bed knowing full well no baby was due in a few months. I can’t stand the nausea! It happened once before for a few days and when it passed I thought it would never come again. Here I am nauseous and now can’t sleep and with air freshener in my hair. I want to scream out in the night but it will wake my boys sleeping peacefully down the hall and my husband may really think I am in the “mood” this time.
Finally, the sun rose and I had survived the night with the nausea improving. I dozed off after sunrise to be soon awoken by my sons jesting and laughing about their dad "nuking" the bathroom. I had questions. The answer was my husband’s late night snack of a sandwich garnished with raw onions.
But why am I so nauseous? And why does everything smell so bad? Is this normal? And will my husband ever smell good to me again?
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