NEED ADVICE, 1st Time Medication Taker
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Hello All,
I can't say that I've been depressed for my whole life. But in the last year and a half or so, I've had some depression and anxiety issues. My mother passed away last January, there was a lot of things that happened surrounding her death. Aside from having to watch the most important person in my life pass, I had to deal with losing our home because of legal issues, losing the 100k life insurance policy, and having to take care of my brother who is actually older than me... by myself. So while dealing with all of this last year, I was still OK, I guess so anyway. Sometimes it is hard to tell. I think some would understand me. But in January, me and my girlfriend broke up. And although she wasn't necessarily "good for me", I think it hurt me and put me in a REALLY bad downward spiral. I am constantly thinking negative thoughts, I have weird sleeping patterns, I feel very restless and cannot be by myself without driving myself crazy with my thoughts. I think a lot about her and my mother. So I went to my therapist, she suggested I see a psychiatrist just to see what he says. I went two days ago, and he listened to my story and my feelings. He feels that a serious of events have put me in a depressive state. He prescribed me Zoloft. Not to take forever, but until I get into a more "comfortable" place I guess. I have not taking it yet. And like many others, I read reviews and experiences, and get very scared. I know everyone has different experiences with them. I also don't want to feel like I'm covering up my issues with medication. I have been feeling hopeless. I'm not sure if I have to man up and handle things or just say "Hey... it's okay to just take this medication, get yourself to a better place, then see what happens from there."
I don't want to lose myself, feel like a zombie, or any other of these things I'm hearing. I'm just incredibly nervous. I need to get these thoughts about my ex girlfriend out of my head that are constantly nagging me, and I want to feel less likely to break down at the thought of my mother not being around. Is Zoloft something that can help with this? I just want advice, any advice. This is my first time posting anywhere about anything on a forum, lol... so just know that I really need to hear from real people. Thank you!
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larissa37857
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When I first started taking them I felt horrible, after 4 days I had bad abdomen pain and didn't feel myself at all, so much so that I rang NHS DIRECT and talked thru not taking them anymore, but....I pushed thru because I admitted to myself that I needed extra help..
I had a LOT of side effects in the beginning..dry mouth, clenched teeth, no appetite and many others...now and for a long time I have had none. Ive reduced my dosage to 25mg as of a month ago and hope to wean.off by summer.
I (like many others I'm sure) was very scared to start taking these tablets but I am very glad I did now....it does all pass and you will feel better in the long run...
keep strong, we all like to think we are indestructible but were not..every know and then we need to admit to ourselves that we need extra help.
I am a woman of 38.
good luck!!!!
rob74885
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rob74885
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larissa37857
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katharine63063
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david49878
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On the other hand, what you have experienced is very hard, and it woiuld not be normal to be all chipper about things following such travails. You might want to forego the med and just wait for awhile, use your support network, and give yourself a little time to establish new routines, activities, etc. and enjoy old ones of course.
My mom died of cancer (which I also got years later) in 2003 in my arms in North Carolina and nothing was harder..I am a Vietnam vet of quite a few years total visits and have held dying people before..not same with the the one person you love most in life. I can seriously empathize. I had serious issues myself during that time and after. I still miss my mom and am estranged from my brother, largely due to his actions and lack of care/support during that time.
I would say don't be afraid of addiction to the drug, side effects, stigma, etc. if you want to try the med which was, after all, prescribed to you by a doctor. But it might just be some time and space and change of scenery you need.
Not sure this helped, but hope you feel better soon.
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gingemac1977
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i can't even begin to imagine how hard things have been for you. when you get in a depressive state it's really hard to get yourself back on track without either therapy or medication, i've done both in the past, depression and anxiety are my issues, and they follow and haunt me throught my adult life and descend whenever they feel like it, cause absolute havoc and destruction to me as a person and my relationship with my boyfriend. then when it's done the damage, i return to my normal self. it's crazy........i've been on sertraline for 6 weeks now, first 50mg for the 1st 4 weeks and i didn't improve, i must say i'm one of the lucky ones, all i've had side effects wise has been mild compared to some posts on here i've seen, shakey, migranes/headaches, gittery and weightloss. i did get increased anxiety to start with but that settled down after a week or so.
I am slowly getting better, i usually have 2-3 bad days a week, and today is the first down day i've had in a week, so i can see an improvement. i'm upset i feel down today because i was doing so well and for some reason, i've woke up in a down mood and not smiling. no reason why i've been fine all week and felt good and happy, and today is a different story, i don't feel as bad as normal though, so suppose that's something, it's just so disheartening when you feel good one day and then crap the next for no apparent reason. when i feel bad and really down, i torment myself with negative thoughts racing through my head, i convince myself that everything is wrong in my life and to add the final nail, i convince myself that my boyfriend has had enough and he's going to leave me for someone better which leaves me feeling insecure and suspicious, which is horrible when you feel down anyway. my self confidence is shattered at the moment, i'm trying to trust the meds and let them do their job, but always in the back of my mind i'm just waiting for a bad and down day to rear it's ugly head, and when it does i recoil back into my shell and become withdrawn and irritable, no longer happy, confident and worry free. i'm not saying i want it to completely cure me, i know that's not possible and i know that every one gets down, but every week for me?? i feel like i've been dealt a duff hand in life and i'm worried that i'm going to have this battle for the rest of my days. sertraline has been the best medication i've tried so far, with a therapist there is only so much you can talk about, they try and give you ways to change your thinking which can be helpful at first but i find it a waste of time after a while, the bad thoughts ingulf the good and CBT sessions and i just end up low, low, low!! still, i have to still give it time. im on 100mg now, have been for the past 2 weeks, so having had a full week of feeling good, that's got to be an improvement right?? just wish i could have 2 weeks of feeling good and only 1 day inbetween, but maybe tomorrow i'll be feeling a bit more myself eh?? i have to trust the meds and let them do what they are supposed to do. i however, would stay on these for the rest of my life if i had to, to combat my depression, it has dominated my life for so long, that i've had enough, i'm ready for a fight with it. every time i want to do something with my life, i always have to ask the question, how will that affect my depression?? me and my boyfriend have talked about having children in the future, now as a woman and having female friends tell me how bad your hormones can be with pregnancy, can you imagine how bad i would be pregnant if i'm like this now?? i'd love to have kids, but that thought is terrifying me, i don't think there is a medication you can take when your pregnant for depression so i feel doomed at that thought!! depressive or what!! hope you all have good days today :-)
weenett gingemac1977
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1975
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gingemac1977
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gingemac1977
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JE87
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I went out yesterday with friends and had a REALLY great time. It made me forget about a lot of things. Like @david49878 said, it may be that I just need to be around my support system and get back to doing things I enjoy doing. So by Monday for sure, I will make a decision.
Everyone else, I appreciate your comments and feedback so much! You don't know how much it means to have real people who are willing to share their unique experiences. Thank you!
1975
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Good luck with whatever you choose to do.
gingemac1977
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if the side effects are anything to go by, if anyone is going to get a dickie tummy it's usually me, if i take anything, drink or eat anything that my system isn't used to or doesn't like, i'm usually the first one to start with problems!! that is a classic side effect of sertraline, i've been on mine for 6 weeks and only had that happen twice, so if your prone to certain things, sometimes it can psychologically talk you into having those symptoms, since i've been on it, i've been probably all in all, 75-80% better than i was, when i think back before i was taking sertraline, i was a nightmare but these days i'm not so bad, still get the negative thoughts and nearly had a panic/anxiety attack last tuesday but managed to catch myself and get control of my breathing before i went into a full blown one.
it will take time to get into your system, the panic attacks/anxiety won't last forever and when you come through the other side, you will be glad you took them and stuck with it. keep us updated. my main issue is depression and negative thinking that comes and goes every other day and i get anxiety attacks when it goes away, and then when it comes back again, although i was good last week, feeling okay upto now and hopefully will be okay for the rest of this week :-) good luck and keep us posted on how you're feeling, don't forget we are all in this together so share how your feeling and even that helps so much :-)