Need some help please

Hi, all, Im sorry if my post is long but i just need to get things out of my head and try and  find someone who understands. About 6 years ago i was told i had depression and was put on flouxetine (im sure thats what it was) I was on it for about a year then just woke up one morning and thought im not going to do this any more and i came of the pills and life was ok. I have had a lot of worrie and stress over the last 4 years my partner went to jail and life was a mess  but i carried on got a job made new friends. My partner came home 7 months ago and we had a few problems which we have delt with. About 3 months ago I was at work when i had flashes in my eye like a camera flash had just gone of in my face, this lasted about half an hour and i really felt i was going to pass out, I was so scared and keept walking away from anyone who came near me. Ever since then i have felt so strange in myself, my eyes dont feel right (i have had my eyes tested and now have glasses but this makes no difference) I sometimes feel like im walking down a hill when im not, when Im reading or using the computer i will get really bad dizzy spells that just come out of the blue or flashing lights in the corner of my eyes. The worst thing tho is the feeling of things not being real, its hard to explain its like i know where I am and what im doing but I feel like im in a dream and i have to walk away from what im doing, my whole body feels light and i will keep touching my face or removing my glasses and putting them back on to try and feel normal. The constant dizzy spells and headachs are driving me mad aswell, its all the dam time. I have been to my doctor and she put me on propranolol tablets but i wont take them as i i read what they are used for and and dont think they are right for me (my friend and partner agree) I panick over things like this. All i want is to just be normal, I wake up and before i even open my eyes im thinking am i going to be dizzy this morning, do i have a headache, have i got flashes in my eyes. To be honest i think Im going mad, I think people are putting something in my drink at work as i cant explain why I feel like this I wont even put my drink in the fridge. I worrrie over everything, if my partner has a cold i think his really ill and ask him over and over if his ok, if my mum starts coughing I leave the room and will pace up and down till she stops as i think she is going to choke and die. I work 12 hour shifts 5 days a week and im worried this is going to affect my job as its getting worse. Please someone tell me what to do, Thanks xx

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