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Arya287
Arya287

Having a really bad day today, haven't slept well in the last couple of nights, think its caught up with me today. my family are getting frustrated with me because they don't get it, they don't understand why I can't pull myself out of feeling the way I do, I don't even know sometimes.

My Anxiety is through the roof, I haven't worried about my heart in 2days and now I'm worrying again. I literally have no energy, I feel foggy headed and off balance.

When I have good days, they're the best I'm my normal hyper rocker girl self lol, but when I have bad days I just want too hide away. Its like I have two different personalities, and it is starting too affect my relationships with people. Anyone else out there feel like this? sad Xxx

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  • william82327
    william82327 Arya287

    Posted

    Oh god yes Arya, just yes. I can't offer any advice, personally, but I know how you feel. Some days are just great! And I feel on top of the world, then, the rest of the days, I'm fighting off the world(or atleast it feels that way) I've yet to see a doctor, I was suppose to go today infact, I couldn't bare the outside world today, so I stayed in and mopped about. I'm sorry I can't offer any advice, but I know how you feel, I'm confident and boisterous on my good days, then bad days, I'm like another person, shy, timid almost scared, no energy and generally just don't want to do anything. It's nice to hear I'm not alone to be honest.

    Will.

    • Arya287
      Arya287 william82327

      Posted

      Thank you so much for your reply. I'm pretty much all over the place at the moment, I don't know if I'm coming or going. It's so frustrating at times isn't it? X
    • william82327
      william82327 Arya287

      Posted

      I can honestly relate, I've been hit with this pretty hard the last few months more than ever, it's like I'm stressed 24/7. My head can't stop thinking, worrying, and it's going at about 100mph everyday, and it just gets too much, when I'm low, everything sets me off, winds me up and just pushes me further and further into this, kind of self destructive and antisocial mood and it's incredibly frustrating, yeah. X
    • woe45
      woe45 william82327

      Posted

      I can soo relate to you... it's so tiring. I have been recently diagnosed with Cyclothymia. It sucks😠 The mood swings upset so many friends and family.
  • Capodingos
    Capodingos Arya287

    Posted

    Sometimes I feel much better too and have more energy (not recently though, mostly just depressed, especially over winter), not sure if this is normal feeling good, anxiety driven energy or feeling manic.

    Have you been diagnosed with depression or bipolar or cyclothymia?

    Are you taking any medication?

    I have been reading a lot online to try and understand how I feel. I found an online questionaire that I completed and it suggested I might have symptoms of cyclothymia (milder bipolar). I don't know whether to believe it as it did not have many questions and don't know how accurate or easy to mislead it is, and suspect in my case it could just be anxiety.

    Depression is easy to diagnose, it is obvious and debilitating.

    Apparently bipolar or cyclothymia is often missed as only the depressive side gets seen, the manic periods make people feel great, unless they are wildly out of control and get into trouble they don't see it as a problem or report to doctor.

     

    • Arya287
      Arya287 Capodingos

      Posted

      Hi, thank you for your reply. smile

      I've got depression, but I've always wondered if I have bipolar, but everytime I asked the doctors to be tested or whatever it is that they do, they wouldn't do it. It was if it was too much trouble. I've seen counselors, but I've never gone passed them to see a specialist. Its frustrating.

      I've taken online tests also, but it is best to go to your doctor.

    • Capodingos
      Capodingos Arya287

      Posted

      Hope you are feeling a bit better today.

      It is difficult for family and friends to see someone depressed but sometimes we just need a little time out and need their understanding and support when ready. I push people away as I get tired of their demands but then feel isolated.

      It is frustrating that mental health services are inadequate and hard to access. Unless a person is violent or a risk to themselves they are often not interested. So we have to try and work it out for ourselves, and struggle throught it all.

      The online tests results showed I was depressed and had social & generalized anxiety, which I had been diagnosed by a doctor before.

      They also suggested I may also have over 7 various personality disorders, OCD and cyclothymia, which obviously can't all be true and could be just due to my negative thinking because of depression. So they are not much use really without being able to discuss with professional.

      I think myself that I have cycles of anxiety and depression. The anxiety gives me nervous energy to get things done and keeps me awake at night worrying, but then it all gets too much and I get exhausted so I shut down and sleep a lot and push people away and feel negative about myself that I can't cope. Then after a while I feel more rested and get frustrated with myself for giving up and the anxiety kicks back in.

  • Guest
    Guest Arya287

    Posted

    I feel like this everyday I just turned 17 n it was lonely My mum frgot it was my bday on the second of January n I haven't left room since, I have been in my room for most of the time since I was around 14 15
    • mary_ann93849
      mary_ann93849 Guest

      Posted

      If she had forgotten, just let it go. You go out of your room and just ask her if you could order pizza for someone's special birthday? That might do it.
  • julia154
    julia154 Arya287

    Posted

    HI, Arya... i to have just been diagnosed with this. but to me it seems a lot more like im going out my mind. this seems to me a cycling mood change thing but to me its more like im going mad. feel like someone is controlling me like a puppet.  i seem to have days where im so down and cant concentrate on doing the simplest task mind is empty fogged, feel totatly empty. then days when im high as a kite not enough hours in the day to do things running round like a rabbit caught in head lights, wierd as hell. is this you to ..? feel like i want to do a million things at once , talking is rapid well every thing is fast speed . my family just dont get it either , this is starting to get really out of control  now. geting worse these mood swings. im sure im going crazy at times. im waititng to go for therapy well talking is not going to get rid im sure of that. but im willing to give it a try .im on 40 mg citalopram just now but have been for 8 years now but was put on those for  anxiety years ago  for borderline skitzophrenia cant spell it.   i feel like im 2 different people one nice the other is down right nasty to anyone who gets in my way ..  damn im ranting. well  i just want to know if anyone else is like this. with this ....? 
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