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I'm on day 43 of 20mg. I was feeling a tad better, as in I felt kinda numb but not as anxious. Now I suddenly feel about 20 times worse. I keep shaking and twitching, i can feel adreniline rushing around, my head feels like its stuffed and pressure (possibly due to muggy weather), my sleep is worse and my thoughts are paranoid, bad or just plain weird/hard to control. My heart keeps racing and I have no motivation to get out of bed or do anything, when before I could atleast force myself to do something and my appetite is gone. I keep wanting to cry or feel like I'm gonna panic/lose it/get frustrated but the tablets make me so numb it's difficult. The dr told me it was normal and to stay on them and I can either up my dose or change to a different type of pills alltogether but both options scare me. I just want to be happy again but I don't see a way out. Everything looks weird, feels confusing and just scary.
I have uni exams at the moment, 2 left but I feel like I don't care about them but I wasn't too bad up until a few days before the first one. I do have a bit to worry about but I feel stressed and anxious as if there is nothing to be stressed about, if that makes sense.
The dr said the extra stress of exams isn't helping and to stay on my current dose until after exams. Is this all normal? Could it be exams stressing me out even when I feel so careless about them? I keep getting scared I'm seriously ill when I know I'm not. It just helps to have reassurance that all my symptoms are normal.
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