Need To Talk!
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I know I said 'need to talk', but how, why & what to say. I have suffered off and on from deression for over 30 years now, I first had it after my first child was born, I had severe Post -Natal depression, it lasted for 3 and a half years, after my second child it happened again, after being told by the medical profession that it wouldn't recur since I'd had it before I would know what was happening and be able to fight it. WRONG!!!!! Since then it had recured several times, I have had ECT, which I wish I hadn't, as my memory of my childs younger years are shot to pieces. The doctor a few years ago decided that it was SAD I was actually suffering from and told me to take more Vit.D., I went along with this, I have Rheumatoid Arthritis as well which is horrible. Sometimes I wonder if it's Karma and perhaps I really am a bad person and therefore desserve all this horrible things that are happening to me. I had been doing not bad at fighting it until about 5/6 weeks ago and bang was hit with a sledgehamner, I haven't got dressed for weeks now, And although I hate to admit this I haven't actually showered for over a week now. Anyone who knows me would tell you this is not me, I love to be showered, make up on, out and about, love spending time with friends, but now I don't answer the phone, I know I'm in trouble. I want it to end, I dont' have the courage or guts to end it, sometimes I wish I did. Sorry I said I didn't know what I wanted to talk about and now I've rambled thank you to anyone who reads this and perchance answers me.
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paul67642 Tricia55
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Tricia55 paul67642
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johneurope Tricia55
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Depression has just hit me like a ton of bricks and I wanted to end it all only a month ago.Its hard work as i have recently experienced.I have started anti depressants 3 week ago and feel worse,someone started a discussion before regarding water so I had two glasses and feel the best I have felt all day lol.I to struggle to get out of bed its were I am now,it's were I have been all day but for some reason my head feels much better,must be the water lol,Anyways if your feeling as low as you sound if there's a friend you can call to pop around for a cup of tea or put something funny on the TV or you tube even try drink some water might clear your head it has mine,for now.You need to get the negative thoughts out of you're head,easily said I know but chin up an feel better
Tricia55 johneurope
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johneurope Tricia55
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Depression has just hit me like a ton of bricks and I wanted to end it all only a month ago.Its hard work as i have recently experienced.I have started anti depressants 3 week ago and feel worse,someone started a discussion before regarding water so I had two glasses and feel the best I have felt all day lol.I to struggle to get out of bed its were I am now,it's were I have been all day but for some reason my head feels much better,must be the water lol,Anyways if your feeling as low as you sound if there's a friend you can call to pop around for a cup of tea or put something funny on the TV or you tube even try drink some water might clear your head it has mine,for now.You need to get the negative thoughts out of you're head,easily said I know but chin up an feel better
Tricia55 johneurope
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chris14174 Tricia55
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Tricia55 chris14174
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I hate this illness, I also hate when people say to you try to get out for a walk, Hahahaha! If I could get out for a walk I'd be half way there, in fact more than half way, sorry if that sounds harsh but you probably know where I'm coming from. Hope your having a decent day.
chris14174 Tricia55
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edmond88544 Tricia55
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It doesn't matter what you achieve, there isn't such thing as fate, that once you discover you may finally find peace about how things gonna go. Why do we wanna know so much what is going to happen before it happens? Why are we so afraid? What could possibly happen?
Let me tell you a story of myself. I saw at the beach a rock that was very tall and hard to climb. I got close and got the desire to climb it to the top. It was really dangerous. One little wrong move and I would fall down to the rocks and probably be dead. After my desire appeared, soon came thoughts from the past. "You have been swimming for long, you are tired, you cant do this, your feet are wet, you may fall and die, you are stoned (cuz i was :P). My head was bombarded at such a short time with thought full of fear. After that i said, you aint stronger than me stupid thoughts from the past. I climbed it, and that feeling of releasing those fears, got my legs shaking for 5 minutes, and kept me fueled up with happiness for the whole day, and keeps doing the same effect.
I wrote this to tell you, that whatever is stopping you, get it out of your way, just ignore it. Dont fight it. Thats what these kind of thoughs want. They want you to fight with them so that you hardly forget about them. Just ignore them, tell them to leave you in piece. This is a process that takes practice in everyday things. Even if you get the desire to eat something different rather than the food you eat most, do it, you may not like the taste in your mouth, but you will love the feeling in your body. The feeling of trying new things, and being part of the natural order
peter2824 edmond88544
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Trish55 knows her problems and very ellequently put them down in words to everyone who is reading and posting on Patient. That is where she should start. Strip down to your buff and with a sink of lovely warm water and flannel allow the water to flow over your body. Keep your eyes closed and try to change your thoughts from those very negative thoughts to lovely calming thoughts. You are answering your own questions by seeking consol from very different people who deal with their own individual problems in a totally different way.
I suggest look through the many months of anxiety forum and see for yourself. Everyone has the same problem ANXIETY, but no one can has found the definative answer to how to deal with it.
Do your problem in a different way! Look outside of the box. Do something that only you have thought of doing, to help you get out of that rut you are in. Great by all means try to get inspiration from other people in the same or have been in the same prediculment, but don't ask for miracles. ONLY YOU CAN CHANGE THE WAY YOU FEEL. Best regards and good luck Peter. Oh, nealy forgot thanks Edmond for letting me in to your Post, many thanks.
edmond88544 peter2824
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How old are you Peter?
peter2824 edmond88544
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edmond88544 peter2824
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Tricia55
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