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I just created this account because I read that finding a support group can help and I really hope this one does. This is gonna be long winded but I'm thinking there must be people here who can relate and offer some tips or insight.
Basically I've had panic and anxiety attacks on and off for years, I never told anyone out of fear/shame, and was never interested in getting medication because even the idea of taking something for a headache gives me anxiety. About a month and a half ago my anxiety came back in a big way, I had attacks at least once a day, with no known trigger other than the fear of an attack coming on. It came to a head on Saturday, I couldn't eat and was in a constant state of either mild anxiety to total panic from the time I woke up until I fell asleep, it had never been so bad and this lasted three days before I couldn't take it anymore, on Monday, thinking I needed to go to the ER twice that day, I told my parents I absolutely needed to see a doctor. Tuesday my mother left work early to drive me to a phycologist, I was in such a state she said she couldn't help me and I needed to go to a walk in clinic where they would give me a benzo to calm me down. Straight from there we went to my GP, of course the idea of the meds made my mental state even worse. They ended up giving me the maximum dose of Valium intervieniously. That helped for a few minutes and out of nowhere my panic came back, after thirty minutes of my heartrate not slowing my GP called in an ambulance, thinking they would need to sedate me at the ER. They didn't, but they did give me Metoprolol, two doses of Xanax, something for my thyroid just to hedge their bets while they waited for my blood work to come in, and fluids. After three and a half hours I was discharged, my blood work and urine analysis both came back normal, but the ER Doctor gave me a prescription for Metoprolol, along with the Alprazolam prescription my GP gave earlier.
When I got home I had pretty serious diarrhea, normally this would get my heart racing but all the meds kept me calm I guess. When I woke up I had diarrhea again, and upon reading the information packet from the ER I saw it could be a side effect of the Metoprolol. Now the Metoprolol prescription is .25mg once a day with food, the Alprazolam is a 1mg pill, saying to take one to two three times a day as needed. My anxious self called both doctors right away, GP said take two of the Alprazolam right away, and not to worry and go ahead and take the Metoprolol too, and that he would call in a prescription for diarrhea medication to my local pharmacy. The ER said I needed to be very careful and monitor my blood pressure after taking the Metoprolol especially if it was giving me diarrhea.
With no blood pressure machine and way too afraid to take all those medications when I was alone, I decided to skip the Metoprolol and just take the two Alprazolam while waiting for my father to bring home a machine and the diarrhea meds. The Alprazolam made me crazy drowsy, I fell asleep for an hour or so waiting for my dad to come home. When he did I took the diarrhea medication and checked my blood pressure. It was normal, as usual, and my heart, while on the higher end, was still in a normal range. My dad saw my anxiousness and said not to take the Metoprolol, if my heart rate was normal what was the point? I listened to him and started keeping a record of my readings which I'm bringing to my follow up appointment with my GP tomorrow morning.
I was so drowsy for the rest of that day when I finally fell asleep at 9pm (VERY early for me) I slept for twelve hours straight. I haven't taken any of the Metoprolol, and for the past two days I've had only one of the 1mg Alprazolam pills in the morning instead of the two. I noticed the drowsiness wore off towards the end of the night yesterday, and today I took the pill around 11am, now it's 5pm, way earlier, and the drowsiness also seems to be gone.
I'm concerned about a number of things, I've read so many horror stories about Xanax issues, addiction, withdrawal, ect. While it does work to mellow me out, I don't like how fuzzy my head feels, and now that it's not feeling that way I almost want to take another just to keep the anxiety/panic symptoms at bay incase they come back, but am holding off unless absolutely necessary. Also, doesn't 1mg seem like a very high dose? From what I've read most people are starting on .25mg. I'm going to bring up these things with my GP tomorrow. I'm also in the process of trying to find a good psychologist. Feeling this way sucks so much and I just want it to stop and to feel normal again.
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