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So I thought I would post on here today as I am starting a new job tomorrow which I really wanted so I am delighted about it. Usually tonight would be a drinking night for me but of course I don't want to drink in case I feel like crap tomorrow & smell of booze. I am already fighting with the voice in my head saying well just start earlier than usual & stop earlier & you will be fine & then I'm saying no just don't do it but the voice keeps looking for an excuse to do it.
Last night I had a few drinks openly at home with my husband & for those of you who know my story I would usually secret drink also so I could secretly consume more but I openly drank & had no alcohol on Friday. I want this to be my new weekly routine just the one night & in the open. I end up consuming less when I am not secret drinking. I drank last night just over 3 quarters of a half a bottle of vodka instead of the full half a bottle & I did feel drunk. Once I drink Saturday I crave more on the Sunday as my comfort treat. I am so so tempted to just start earlier in secret but it can't go like this. Any during the week drinking has got to stop also which isn't as often to be honest - today's habit is killing me.
Any advice would be much appreciated.
Thank you x
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