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Hi,

It's not a nice place to be, I was very distant (still am) and I am not the skeleton thin some people are either but it does mean ou don't suffer form it and don't feel stupid! Laxatives are not good for you and can be dangerous, does anyone know you take them? I haven't had suicidal thoughts but I'm sure you have everything to live for!

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Hiya i am sorry to hear this but u have got to over come the thought in your head and think you are wirth it i am currenly trying to recover from anorexia and have told my family how bad things can get and they have been supportive do your family know?

Gah, I started writing a response to this, then my laptop did something weird.

I responded to the issue on laxatives on your other post, so I'll ignore this here. (But it is an exceptionally relevant point, so please reread it).

I totally empathise with your anorexia nervosa image. It is one I have fought with and actually for years, could not confide in anyone because the image in my head didn't consider me thin enough, or worthy enough to have an eating disorder. This was to my detriment, because not only missing my entire adolescence with this illness, when I was forced to tell my parents I then missed my entire A level year in an inpatient unit, because I was too sick. If only I had had treatment when it first started,,,

So in case anyone was confused. Some fun facts.

Eating disorders are mental illness. They are symptoms of an underlying problem, and coping strategies which require treatment for physical issues when severity increases.

Anorexia nervosa is the least common of all eating disorders. But it receives the most attention. EDNOS (Eating disorders not otherwise specified) is the most common, and sufferers in this category struggle to get treatment because their symptoms don't fit neatly into a box. Mentally they will be just as an unwell as anyone in any other disorder group.

Eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of all mental illnesses. 1 in 5 die.

You can recover. Early intervention helps. As does compliance with treatment (apparently that means following your meal plan...) a good therapist and a good dietician. The team I've had for the last year were exceptional. 

You've been talking about a lot of elements here which are all linked to poor nutrition. Irritation is caused by irregular eating, particularly if you are not eating enough carbohyrates. You will probably also be having a lack of sleep too.

Sufferers also tend to be low in mood and motivation and commonly depressed. I have experienced suicidal thoughts, been very depressed, and my emotions were all over the place.

I still have periods were they aren't great, but since eating regularly the difference is incredible. 

I also really recommend doing a food and mood diary as it totally helps you track what's going on. I know now that I have an increase in my eating a week before my period. My dietician explained this is usual, and I've started to accept that my body wants to prepare me for pregnancy on a monthly basis (!). Instead of trying to shut it down, I plan it in my meal plan, because binges are stressful. So I work around it, and increase my diet slightly on those days. I also know that emotionally its a tough time.

But I only picked that up doing a food and mood diary.

Don't know if this is helpful at all?

I don't know what your current eating is, but why not try making sure you at least get something in 3 times a day? I happen to love porridge for breakfast, oats so simple is such an easy breakfast!