no better day
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I've always loved the feeling of being alive and excited to unfold what life has to give me. mishappenings aren't new to me . but the way i react to it and my coping mechanism are unpredictable. the things i used to enjoy doesn't make sense anymore . and I've started to fantasize so many random things. the illusion of it feels so nice and there is no way i could control it. i feel some kind of psychic to predict things. and i succumb to it because there's nothing in my potential i could do to set it alright. i don't know how respond to the same things i eased with. more it makes sense that nothing in life is permanent. i know I've lost it . trying to heal everyday. but at the back of mind i know this is will happen again. more fiercely and more intense that i will not be able to sustain another blow. i struggle with finding the courage to tell people who care about me that I'm not okay. I'm also mad at them to not have realize that i haven't been myself in a long time. there is no guide to perfect life or a lifestyle and all my efforts are in vain. sleep is long gone. yet it feels like i am sleeping way out through life. one thought is intense and the other more louder. my mind feels like an empty place and also the most blaring horn at the same time
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sam18386 icantanymore
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hi i cantanym, i think your behaviour is stuck in a loop, going over and over. knowing how to step out of this causes the difference, it may help you to heal. do you get nightmares, visual images or trouble sleeping? do you get flashbacks? family are tough to tell anything too. you could need support off your doctors, a health professional or someone who is NOT in your family. i do understand, my mother is sometimes so difficult it still breaks me apart? look after only you, it's not being selfish, just looking after yourself! good luck, not funny! 😢😢😢😢👎👎👎👎👎