No way to be a woman

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Since 2007 trying to be what I was supposed to be (a woman), I now think it's impossible. After SRS (I'm not regret about the surgery), vocal surgery (not regret, either), lipoaspiration and nose surgeries... What I can say is that: if I love taking sauna, run a lot without a hat, swimming... So, no way to use a wig to do lots of my beloved exercises. No way to be me. And I'll never have a botton like any other woman, nor hip (like the Brazilian women have). Because I have no Hair (impossible to have natual hair to go to the beach, to a sauna, to run, to walk for 6 miles a day), no Hip, no botton, and my face is quite the same to the people who didn't see me for the last 15 years or more... I will return to my man condition just getting rid of my breast. It's better to be happy making my exercises to try to be a fake woman and sedentary.

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    Look. I'm virgin since the day I was born. Tried 5 suicide methods and unluckely I'm here to see that it's impossible to continue as a half man and half woman. So, my name is Gabriela (the same no person as above) and I'll get rid of my breast and other things. 8 (eight) years with nothing and for me there's nothing. There's no way to change my man building (men bones). So, I'll return to be a man changing my name and, if possible, my sex (only at papers)... 
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    Geez..I'm wondering why...during your transistion no one discussed with you the hair part?? If you had known you would never grow hair on your head...than would you have changed your mind then? Or did you know and you didn't think it would impact you as much.

    What is Jenner doing (Catlyn)?  Its obvious that is a wig....AND he was an olympian..I'm sure he exercises...before you impulsively...lose the breasts...and all else that has started your transistion...Can you somehow find out what he has done?

    With the 5 suicide attempts....probably related to your mental confusion about what to do...change or not change...it worries me that you are going to back to the deep dark hole....and feel like a failure.

    You are not a failure...its just not easy to transistion and I'm sure it is one of the hardest things EVER in the world.

    You not having hair makes it difficult for you to begin with....because hair extensions could be used...But, how about a super sticky wig that doesn't come off with exercise and sauna? Its hard to believe they are not available.

    With all the money you have indulged so far in the change...I would think you could find something?!!

    I just read something about "wig grip" and people are swearing their wigs do NOT fall off.

     

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    I'm going to get rid of the breasts and started to use male clothes. For 40 years of my life I was free to go to a lot of swimming pools (champion of 120 trophys, without counting my Judo and Karate medals and trophys) and waterfalls without the way I'm afraid now to go. I don't use female clothes for the last 3 years (only a short, polo shirt, shoe tennis and a hat) because I don't have hip, female bottom, hair (natural). I can't stand staying at home missing my freedom, freedom to go to a lot of waterfalls near my city. Unfortunately I'm not a man or a woman, and people hate someone not being a man or a woman. So, after all changings (voice surgery with Dr. James Thomas, SRS with Dr. Suporn, nose with the best brazilian surgeon etc.), the best way is to be me, the natural me, without any feminine things and to try to be happy with the way I am: nor man nor woman. Justice changed my name to female but I'll get the older name back. Transition if for young people with hair and any hip or a feminine bottom. Not for masculine bones like me. I thought for 2 years what to do and I have no idea because surgery can't operate miracles. I'm only saying things here because for 8 (eight) years I thought things would be possible, but there is no way. So, people have to be happy by their own, to feel happy alone. I made 2 (two) hair transplantation, but the hair loss was great, and "hope is the last thing to die" Bruce (Cate) Jenner is very, very differente because she's very, very richer than I'm and she has parents to support her things. In my case I'm alone with myself (no one gave me any king of support, only money bought things to me). My life is very different here in Brazil. I'm a failure as a woman, but not as a man. As a man I can go anywhere and do what I want without being mocked by ALL BRAZILIAN WOMEN who has bottom and hip different than me. Women in my Country laugh a lot when I put a dress or a swimsuit or swimwear. They treat me like I'm an ET from Jupiter or so. There is no place for an ET like me in the women's society, But as a man other men will have respect for me. 

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