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Not sure how to differentiate my emotions anymore?

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flikstick
flikstick

Hi all,

just taking the opportunity to breathe some words that have been ruminating in my head - I'm in my 7th month of a spiral with anxiety and depression, triggered by reasons I have been going to a therapist to talk through. I’ve been on 3 types of medication in that time - nothing has touched the sadness, just curbed the anxiety which I desperately want back once all I have is numb. In the beginning I knew how to tell the difference, in who I really was and the sickness, as time has gone on the sickness has taken over more consistently - now I feel like it has eaten me whole, and I can’t remember how it felt to have a light on inside anymore. I’m in a beautiful relationship, we have a beautiful house, I’m fully employed and stable, but lately I feel like I can’t tap into any of these emotions anymore, and it is tearing my mind up - how do I know that this is temporary, when it feels so permanent and final? The life I have is everything I ever wanted, but I feel no appreciation, or kindness or empathy, happiness or love for myself, my life and others. How do I know this isn’t really who I am now? I am so lost and I’m pushing everybody I care about away.

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  • sam18386
    sam18386 flikstick

    Posted

    Hi flik, that sounds awful. You poor bugger! You need to talk to someone i think. You are not very well, if you're on medication it could be that that's tipping you over the edge? I would start with your doctor. You can have all the things you spoke about but be unfulfilled. I wish you luck.

  • emmac23
    emmac23 flikstick

    Posted

    I would say that you've done really well for yourself and you've pushed through and achieved so much despite your depression.

    People can still be depressed and have everything they've ever wanted. Heck look at some celebrities!

    But what matters is finding who you are and how to control your emotions.

    I'm about to start behaviour psychology, and I strongly recommend you doing the same.

    Some of my friends and even family have done it and have helped their emotions and how they respond to certain things etc

    Hope you begin to feel more like yourself soon.

    Update me 😃

    Emma - UK

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