Not sure what to call this one!
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Evening or morning where ever you are.
I have just returned from a 3 hour drive out as I didn;t want to stay in the house. Nice drive hardly any traffic so didn't get road rage, not raining, saw plenty of deer, polecat running across the road and a few owls. Music playing singing along felt quite good in a weird way as now I feel ready but not quite sure what, to accept my depression and the way I feel and embrace it or ready to commit the act and be no more. It is as if I am a different person this evening. I even took my bag that I have packed in case I get carted away, It's difficult to explain it is as if i am getting prepared for something but what something. I am calm almost too laid back as if I am waiting !!! It all feels very unreal as if i am a different person. No I haven't taken any meds only the mirt about 10 mins ago no diazepam today.
Can't explain this one maybe someone can spread some light on it.Thanks hope this makes some sense to someone or have I completely lost it ??
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jude65855 tina89895
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Take it as a sign that your life isn't completely lost to depression. Take care, eh?
sleepless_again tina89895
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Being ready to "commit the act and be no more"? If you do, I urge you to call your gp out of hours service to discuss your feelings with a doctor.
These feelings can be frightening and confusing and, worryingly, can make you act impulsively sometimes.
Look after yourself and stay safe and very best wishes to you
xx
david28533 tina89895
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ann85529 tina89895
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Mermaid3011 tina89895
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Usually people who have suicidal ideations get this kind of "calm before the storm" when they are ready to go.
I feel with you. I had actually the same kind of feeling last night. But wasnt able to go thru with it.
I hope that your feeling of calm is more one of those "accepting the depression and living with it" moments.
Sending you lots of hugs!
B