Not sure what to do
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For quite a long time I've known there's been something going on with me. I've worked through a lot of things but some things I couldn't handle. I feel like everything is an extremely time sensitive situation that has to be handled right then, but most times it's not. I never feel confident about myself or anything I do. Crowds bother me to the extent that if I can't get drunk I won't be there. I become extremely agitated and angry at the smallest things even though they amout to squat. Yesterday, for the first time ever I passed out at work. Things seemed to be going to hell at that moment and I couldn't take it anymore. When I came to my senses in the dirt I realized I need to do what my wife has told me to do for years, go see a doctor. But this has me in knots because I'm afraid of the truth and a label being put on me. I'm scared to tears and it hurts from the inside out. My biggest fear is the unknown. What should I expect at this visit? Will I be just another number to this dr and he not truly care if I live or die? Why can't I just go and get it over with? Why am I so scared?
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gruffudd Guest
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Going to the Dr for the first time was a big deal for me, I totally understand not wanting to be labelled. I think there's something terrifying about it becoming official, more real. You've been building it up for years, probably creating increasingly elaborate arguments in your head about why the potential pitfalls outway the benefits of taking that leap of faith, possibly convincing yourself that it will eventually get better in time. (I'm taking a guess based on my own experience here of course).
But take a step back - the main reason you feel anxious about going to the doctor to seek treatment/ assessment for an anxiety disorder is simple - you have an anxiety disorder! You have an illness just like everyone else at the surgery, except the one we all have - in its various forms - is uniquely horrible in that it tries to stop you from seeking treatment. Don't let it do that any longer. It will be totally fine, and you will be so relieved to have finally done it!
gruffudd Guest
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I probably shouldn't have said 'you have an anxiety disorder' in the first message, as if it were a certainty. Sorry!
Guest gruffudd
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It's ok, I'm not hiding from a problem, I just don't want a doctor to tell me I have a problem?
john47751 Guest
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You're going to meet and or read about many here on this forum that are in the same boat as you are. Don't feel nervous friend...... think of it like ripping off a band-aid. Its hard to deal with at first but after that brief moment of pain then its all over.
I was the same way. I was afraid that the doctor would tell me I was crazy. I'm talking 100% full fruitcake nuttyness. Over time it eventually got worse...and worse....and worse. I was taken to a doctor ( not of my own choice mind you ) and some months later I look back on that and realize that it was one of the best choices a friend made for me.
Believe it or not friend, you can live with a "label". Its a "label" many have and many are willing to support you over. What one CAN'T live with is what you're going through. Trust me.... I couldn't handle the "Label" at first ether BUT over time I could've cared less about the label because my life started to normalize and I started getting back to normal with a doctor's help.
It truly is as simple as that friend.... it really is.
dean40645 Guest
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I'm in the same boat as you Russell. The other night I went for supper with my gf. Got to the restraint and it was packed. We sat down and I started to panic. Today I was unable to go to work because I thought in my head "what if". So today I joined this group and called my Dr. I glad you made the choice also
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It seems like I can't enjoy anything anymore. I have 4 amazing children that I love with all my heart and after I've been at work 10-15 hours each day, I want to just go in my bedroom and be alone, but I cant and I know that. I want to be the daddy that my kids brag about at school but I'm not. I'm going to try to call our family doctor tomorrow, if I get a break at work, and set up an appointment. I want this fixed before it kills me.
StayingStrong Guest
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russell i feel the same, me and my husband are battling to save our marridge because he doesn't quite see what im dealing with, us to went to a restaurant after being apart for two weeks to talk, and my anxiety was there headstrong!! ive dealt with teaching myself not to panic but he felt mad at me cause he expected me to be happy again when he didnt understand i couldnt consentrate on us my head was to busy racing with fear
i don't know myself yet how to make it easier but it's good to talk! your already making baby step's to success.
carol62649 Guest
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Hi Russell,
its a hard place to be for you right now, im there too! But you have to think of all this as an illness that needs treatment. If you had shingles you would see dr for treatment, or if you broke your arm you would go get it fixed. Dont be aftraid of the Dr telling you what you have or dont have, just ask for help and start getting it. Dont try to soldier on alone, talk about how you are feeling, open up to people you will be surprised how many people around us also have issues to cope with.
ive been strong for so many years with lots of health problems, i ve just hit a brick wall, im bruised, worried. I asked for help, i dont give a rats arse about other peoples opinion of my mental state. More than half the worlds population goes through various forms of anxiety at any one time. Most of us will have an episode of depression etc at least once in our lives. Please go and see your Dr for yourself, you deserve to feel better, you are worthy, you are a loving dad, husband and have the strength to fight it!
overcoming that fear of what the Dr says is a major step in the right direction, as NIKE says JUST DO IT! 👍
lisalisa67 Guest
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you are scared because you havent felt so well for a while and probably feel very vulnerable. You are still you. Let the Dr. figure this all out. And look if its something ohyscial they know what to do. If its somethng mental they will still know what to do. So maybe it is a win win situation. ANd hopefully this time in a few months you will be feeling way better and very pleased you went to the Doctor.
youre only label is that you are a human. A husband and a Father.
The unknown is scary at times. You are predicting, imagining scenarios that probably wont even happen, and probably feel vulnerable and insecure right now. In time this will all be a faded memory so dont get all worked up,But youll see this is all going to work out. This is nothing the Doctor hasnt seen before. You are making a very wise decision to go.
gill21655 Guest
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It takes great courage to go and see the GP. and have someone officially tell you.. Yes you have an anxiety problem.
So dont beat your self upabout it.. and go see them.
You wont be labled or judged.
I hid anxiety away from all my collegues at work as i dont want anyone looking at me différently or thinking i am weak.
But it takes a very strong person to cope with all the things anxiety throws at you physically and mentally.
Doctors are so familiar with these problems.. just tell them exactly how you feel. It wont be as bad as you fear.
I felt like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders when i made the visit. I was fearful because i work in the health service and thought it terrible that i had it.
But no one knew apart from me my partner and Gp.. And the guy i saw for CBT. which was very helpful
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Let us know how you get on and good luck.. There is light at the end of the tunnel.... You will beat this 😊