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So lately I have just been a usual person around my age just playing some games like overwatch and such, but im not here to complain about losing in a game, im here to complain about losing at my entire life. I feel every action I do is either wrong or will mess up something for someone else, online things that happen just start mixing up with real life building stress and annoying me. My only escape is video games which has starting to be doing the same thing, making me feel like im useless. For anyone who know what im talking about up next is that in team based games I feel like an anvil on the ship, and for no reason at all I get this feeling that in everything I do in game has some kind of disadvantage such as somehow taking more damage than the enemy is or I fall over easier than the enemy does. Basically real life and my only escape, video games, have both been really annoying me keeping me up at night constantly thinking of things. Back onto me feeling like I will fail at everything, I sometimes keep myself awake in bed for at least 2 hours straight with the thought in my head of how much I will fail when im a full adult, the amount of stress and responsibility just crushes me and makes me feel like im going to be homeless or dead in my future. I just really need some kind of help on this because I am terrible at responsibilities so when I think of having a job in the future I doubt I will have anything very good because my most recent year in school I barely made it out with passing grades (which made up of a ton of C's D's and a few F's) and now it's going to be my first year in high school soon, I know high school counts a lot to my future and what kind of college or job I could get which whenever I think of it I just think im going to fail at high school and then once again end up homeless or dead. I really need some kind of way of explaining why I feel like this and any way to make it better, also any people who come on to reply with something like "Baby" or "Lol" really go knock yourself out, have fun typing away trying to insult me but I am one of the rare few people in the world that don't get their emotions crushed by words. Anyway, to those who are willing to tell me something helpful about this please tell me something that could help me know how to make this better.
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