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Not worth it

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Inmate88
Inmate88

I'm really struggling with my depression and the voices at the moment. I'm so confused about what's real and what isn't. Who's physically there and who isn't. I'm taking meds but they don't seem to help.

I cancelled my last appt with my CMHT CPN because I don't deserve help. And I don't deserve another shot at trying different meds yet again. This is so painful, it hurts so so much

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  • stevo1975
    stevo1975 Inmate88

    Posted

    Inmate,

    Call your local emergency number your life is worth it and its an emergency ! there is medication to help you it is just getting that right hence why you need to call them right away. You deserve help as much as anyone think of all the good you did for people! Now its your turn to be helped,I have balanced along the edge of living and not living and can honestly say its great to be alive my father revived me and I got to see a preview of what he would have seen had I successfully taken my life,something I will remember forever! Get tehhelp you need and deserve and live the normal life again you need medication to balance whatever illness your suffering Take care and keep us informed I would like to hear how your doing!  

  • hypercat
    hypercat Inmate88

    Posted

    Hi do you hear voices with your depression?  That's not usual I don't think but maybe it is.  You could be having a psychotic episode and if so you need immediate treatment.  

    You DO deserve help so get that thought out of your mind right now.   After all it's not your fault is it?  That is your depression talking and you can't trust depression thoughts.  Can you ring your mental health team now?   If not you must go to A & E and tell them what is happening.  Is there a relative or friend there who can help you?   Please make yourself safe .   x

  • Inmate88
    Inmate88

    Posted

    I've had the voices for years, I have Schizophrenia. As yet I've to find a med that helps. I've also tried various meds for the depression but also haven't yet found one that helps. I'm just at a loss. I want help but find it hard to accept the help because I'm not deserving of it. And I'm stuck in a vicious circle
  • Belinda7168
    Belinda7168 Inmate88

    Posted

    How sad it has made me feel reading your words 😔

    I want to reach out and tell you how much more you are worth, not to let this awful disease get the better of you, get help, accept help.

    But while I write this, I feel as you do and personally feel that no matter what anyone says to me, it doesn't stop the pain and thoughts, only I can control what is in my head, apparently 😏

    I am full of compassion for you and hope you embrace any and all advice from the people and services around you

    Wishing you well my friend

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