Nytol Nightmare
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About 4 years ago I started taking Nytol to help with getting back into routine from camping at a music festival.
I enjoyed feeling mellow and it relaxed me. The added benefit of not remembering dreams or nightmares helped too.
It used to just be a few 100mg doses a night but over 3 years it's escalated to 20x50mg tablets every day. I plan my evening routine around taking them.
The local pharmacies asked questions but I'd rotate my visits over a few different towns, I'm naturally quite chatty and they never really said anything.
Two Christmases ago, one pharmacy embarrassed me in front of everyone waiting in the line and refused to sell me them. I know this was right of them to do, but it did seem strange to just mention it then when I'd been visiting regularly for 18 months.
After the incident I looked online and found a licensed website that sell them within the UK. Now, I get them delivered monthly. I go through around 2100 tabs over 4/5 weeks. 1112mg a night. (Even working this oh freaks me out!
I know this is bad but I'm worried that my judgment of taking them is be impacted by the drug itself.
I know these things must be causing all sorts of problems - not least my mood changes and depression - but I'm finding it hard to come off them.
In the times I've tried over the last year or so, I could feel myself steadily feeling more awake and alert. Others described this as hyperactive and fidgety, almost bipolar.
One occasion my boss took me aside to ask if I was ok. I was perhaps a bit chatty and high. I was told (nicely) to calm down.
I know that the tablets suppress my energy and nervous system but coming off them worries me because I think I may have messed up my body for good. I'll be forever restless and over reactive.
I don't feel comfortable talking about it with anyone else. I live alone, hold a good job but my moods are dark and... Well, I just don't know the best way forward.
Should I stop taking them and 'deal' with energy search, or is there something that I can take to help?
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SkyeBeth ross42985
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Once you get of them you will not forever feel restless and over active. The brain is capable of healing from the worse damage, it just takes time. I know it will be scary going off them. We all use our addictions as a crutch and once that crutch is taken away we are left floundering. But this too shall pass. Whatever you do don't try to go at it alone, talk to your GP.
Louisaluvsrio ross42985
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You haven't messed up your body yet. See your doctor and maybe he will give you just ONE pill to take at night to help you sleep.
As for being manic, I wish I was manic without my speed.
anthony10903 ross42985
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