OCD about being lesbian?
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hello everyone!
so I have been diagnosed with GAD and OCD a year ago and ive been on medication (ZOLOFT) for awhile now. I have a boyfriend of 9 months who i love so much. but on and off i keep having thoughts that im lesbian, which makes me anxious. Because of these thoughts i have a hard time getting intimate with my partner aswell as getting turned on because i believe my mind is making me believe i am not straight. Just to clarify i have been straight ALL MY LIFE. I have always been attracted to men and never thought about going for women. It scares me so much because i have horrible images of me doing things witb women and it makes me believe i get aroused by it when its the last thjng i was to do. is this just my ocd playing around with my head? i am so scared.
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ZEN. jj123467
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Hi JJ,
Sertraline or Zoloft is an SSRI (Seratonin Reuptake Inhibitor), the aim of SSRI's is to literally change the way we think to enable us to live a 'normal' life again.
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Your change in thoughts may be due to the SSRI or simply be a normal thought that you are holding onto and allowing it to cause you anxiety. .
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It is certainly nothing to be scared about there are millions of same sex relationships where both parties share love and happiness every day.
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If that is not your choice then see the thought as just that 'a thought' , and allow it to pass.
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Become the 'watcher of your thoughts' , when you notice the troublesome thought appear just recognise it, don't fight it, and allow it to pass like a cloud in the sky.
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Peace 🙏
merianna13804 jj123467
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DEAR jj,
YOUR QUESTION IS VERY PERCEPTIVE. TO ANSWER, YES. THIS IS OCD. OCD PRESENTS IN MANY FORM. FOR EXAMPLE TWO PEOPLE THAT HAVE OCD CAN HAVE FORMS THAT ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER. THE COMMON DENOMINATOR IS OBSESSION.
YOU STATED THAT YOU SUFFER FROM OCD BUT DIDN'T MENTION HOW THE OCD EFFECTS YOU. I THINK THIS MAY BE A MANIFESTATION OF THE OCD. FROM THE INFORMATION YOU WROTE IT SOUNDS TO ME LIKE YOUR SUFFERING FROM SEXUAL ORIENTATION OCD. THIS FORM OF OCD CAUSES YOUR BRAIN TO OBSESS WITH THOUGHTS THAT CAUSE YOU TO DOUBT YOUR SEXUAL PREFERENCE. IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU ARE A LESBIAN OR ARE NO LONGER ATTRACTED TO MEN OR YOUR BOYFRIEND WHO IS THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE.
WHAT THIS FORM OF OCD DOES IS CAUSES YOU TO RELENTLESSLY DOUBT YOUR SEXUAL FEELINGS. SO MUCH SO
THAT YOU CAN'T RELAX AND ENJOY SEX WITH YOUR PARTNER. NOT AN EASY THING FOR YOUR PARTNER TO UNDERSTAND EITHER. HE NEEDS TO KNOW YOU LOVE HIM.
IF YOU ARE SEEING A THERAPIST FOR YOUR OCD PLEASE CONSULT WITH THEM ON THIS MATTER. IF NOT IT WOULD BE BENEFICIAL TO SEEK THE HELP OF PREFERABLY AN OCD SPECIALIST OR ONE FAMILIAR WITH ANXIETY DISORDERS.
I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR SUFFERING. OCD IS A HORRIBLE AND SERIOUS ANXIETY DISORDER.
k08610 jj123467
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Dont be alarmed, I've suffered with OCD that becomes so real its scary.. the worst things you could imagine I've been through. I understand everything your saying and I know it sucks..The mind is a horrible thing when it's full of doubt, it can make you believe anything, but listen to me you are not a Kenyan and you will never be one despite what goes on in your mind..its a classic OCD symptom..your not alone, always go back to your experiences prior to these thoughts and use them to comfort you.. I know it's hard but you can get some handle on this. I have a regimen I follow:
1........500mg of inositol with choline in the morning.
2..........1 "Balanced B complex" from "Mega Food" at lunch
3...........2 viatamin capsules from "Mitocore" between 3 to 4 pm....I get them from "Merz Apothy in Chicago, but you can call company and find a location near you. They are amazing!!
4........500mg of just inositol at night
5........1 to 2 teaspoons of Wild Alaskan fish oil 2150 mg EPA +DHA Omega 3--any time during day..
THESE SUPPLEMENTS HAVE BEEN ALIFE SAVER FOR ME. I WAS SUICIDAL FROM THIS DISEASE AND NOW IM A MILLION TIMES. BETTER. MEDS didnt work for me at all.
Hope this helps.. feel free to contact me , if you have any questions. My kids who suffer take them as well. Miracle cocktail for us..
sandra11065 k08610
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What are your OCD Rituals? Mine is smelling and picking and constant cleaning and landscape perfection. I hired a landscaper to care for my lawn because I would find myself dropping to the ground if I looked down an saw "four leaf clover" invading an area of my lawn, which was everywhere. I would find myself spending hours pulling it out. I also have ADHD, so multi-tasking wears me out. I don't find OCD a real depressing factor but it ould be nice to slow it down. Does this really work??? I may try it for myself.
k08610
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I meant to say you are not alone not a Kenyan, my self correct typing is a mess.
k08610
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Reading back again I was saying you are not a lesbian and you will never be one. Sorry for mix up.
sandra11065 jj123467
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Why are you scared? Your fear about being a Lesbian could be a sign that you're not. There is a bit of Lesbian in all of of us women. Women have always been the one that causes arrousal in most. If you notice in sex movies, when a man and woman are being intermit, she is constantly correseing her own body during relations. There is nothing wrong with fantisising about being with another woman so don't be afraid of those thoughts. Sometimes experiencing with one may make you sure of what you want. There's nothing wrong with it! My cousins were and are gay and they are the happiest people in the world. I also have a gay son and he is the treasure of my life. If you're thoughts about being with another womamn is freaking you out, you most likely are not a Lesbian. You have to figure that out for yoursele and except it which ever you decide. You" are the most important person in the world at this moment and you need to follow your heart. You don't get to do it again, so be happy, not scared. I love you no matter what you decide/ But remember this. Being gay, lesbian, transgender etc. isn't a choice. It's who we are. God does'nt make mistakes, it's how our genetic make up is created. You are still who you are and facing your fears is the first step to a successful you.