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Okay so in September I started getting no very bad anxiety and panic attacks, because my boyfriend at the time would go days without talking to me, and I would just get anxious and thing everything in the world was wrong and kind of just made my self a very stressed out person. In May I went to my doctor and told her I was having weird panic attacks and a lot of anxiety so she put me on lexapro when I went on lexapro after 4 days of being on it I had a suicidal thought I freaked out, and stopped taking the medicine after 6 days .. The next week I was a walking mess .. I cried everyday I couldn't concentrate I didn't feel like myself nothing. Than once the meds were out of my system I felt like my self again. Well after that whole week of feeling normal ...someone was talking about suicide and it triggered everything times ten I literally would leave work come home sleep cause I didn't want my intrusive thoughts to keep coming back ... Because than I started hearing in my head just kill yourself. Even tho I have a great life and great family. after I started getting visions seeing myself harming random people that we were driving by and I flipped out again my counselor told me that was harm OCD. Wel than I started on klonopin and I started to feel way better .but I was still having urges to kill myself but I kinda just waited for them to go away and I was starting to go out more and I was hanging out with my friends more. I stopped looking things up ... Wel now since yesterday over and over and over and over I keep hearing killing yourself over and over and it won't stop and it's scaring me. What does this sound like. I only hear it in my head i don't hear it like a whisper or outside of my head at all? I'm afraid I'm going to either go crazy or that I'm starting to develop syzophrenia ..
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