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OCD / Seasonal depression

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Tyger1994
Tyger1994

Hey everyone. I am a 23 year old male diagnosed 3 years ago with anxiety (OCD/PTSD) and depression. I have noticed that my pattern is 99% seasonal and always sparks in the November-January time of year. 

This year I did not really develop obsessions (OCD symptoms) until just these past few days. This is the farthest into the holiday season I have ever made it since my initial diagnosis in November 2014 so I did not seek out any assistance from a doctor. My obsessions are always revolving around a fear of ever harming someone or something although I have never hurt anything intentionally in my entire life. My obsessions and their focuses are different ever time my OCD sparks up and this time it is a fear of hurting my cats. 

About a week ago I was on social media and someone had reposted a video clip of a teenage boy throwing a kitten into the street. I just got my cats this past October and that video alone ignited new obsessions that I could potentially harm my cat. 

My medications are Zoloft/Abilify but I’ve been off them since February when my last ‘episode’ ended. There is no way I can see or hear from any doctor until after the holidays and I just need advice on how to cope until then. I know my doses and I have medication that can last me through the holidays so should I just start them up again? I know the medications won’t work straight away but I am highly distressed and would rather start them now than later because the longer I take to start them the longer it will be for them to help me. 

Just seeking advice. And if you are not familiar with OCD please do not leave any harmful or derogatory comments that will only make me feel worse. People with OCD often times have difficult admitting what they are anxious about so please understand it took a lot of courage for me to post about this. I LOVE my cats and have never hurt them and I have a loving fiancé of 2 years helping me as well. 

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  • Guest
    Guest Tyger1994

    Posted

    I have anxiety/ harm OCD also. I do not know how to stop either. This has lead to serious insomnia as well. I'm actually considering electro schock therapy. Did the meds ever work for you? Is so, consider staying on them.

  • borderriever
    borderriever Tyger1994

    Posted

    Tyger

    You could try Mindfulness and Breathing Exercises, instruction on site or Internet.

    You mention the medications from last year, i way you should have talked to your GP and asked for your medication. Sometimes these drugs will fail to work well second time around or they may also be dated.

    If you are determined to take medication, contact the Surgery and ask for a repeat prescription, however the Doctor may wish to see you as your last prescription was eleven months or so. Take into consideration the time your medication will take to work and any side effects you may suffer from for about four weeks

    In a way you are lucky to have your Cats and Partner. Personally the fear of hurting your cats  will be very unlikely. and you have someone around to prevent anything bad

    We are here for a chat over Christmas, Enjoy the holiday

    BOB

    • Tyger1994
      Tyger1994 borderriever

      Posted

      THANK YOU for this response. I think my current plan is to try to make it through the holidays to start taking any medication again. I want to be able to talk to a doctor. My only issue is linkage to care. My previous doctor was available to me in college but I graduated college this past May so now I have to search for a psychiatric doctor outside of the college as I am no longer a student. 

      I am going to try and utilize the next week or so to research doctors in my area and maybe leave some voicemails so when they are back from holiday break they already have my information. I just feel guilty and depressed because this time of year always triggers my OCD and anxiety and not only am I ruining the holidays for myself but I feel I’m annoying the people around me and ruining their holidays too. sad

      I’m glad I found my way back to this forum as it helped me a great deal in the past. This anxiety sounds so ‘crazy’ to most people and even silly but when I’m in this state of anxiety it feels so real and inevitable even though nothing has ever happened. My fears (obsessions) never happen! Ever! But I can’t stop worrying. Each day is a struggle. 

    • borderriever
      borderriever Tyger1994

      Posted

      Get prepared Tyger

      Congratulations for your exams, Now all you need is to control your Anxiety and move on, what the devil you only get it at certain times of the year. Getting better should be that much easier to extend your good health vibes

      BOB

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