on the whole, a better day was had
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hello everybody, hello world, just an update regarding me...... still here, which does help, and today has been bliss compared to the past few days. still the niggling headache but I'm getting used to it, less anxious today, did'nt feel as stressed either, fingers crossed I've turned a corner! not counting my chickens just yet, mainly because I do'nt have any chickens. trying to inject a wee bit of "humour" into things helps, although perhaps it's only me that laughs? I do hope everybody else that I've spoken with is slowly but surely seeing light at the end of the tunnel..... caio for now, David
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katecogs david_25160
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Shame there's no actual chickens :-)
david_25160 katecogs
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carl58303 david_25160
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That headache will soon disappear now you're saying things like, " less anxious today, did'nt feel as stressed either" and your mood should improve, if you follow the same route as me, anyway.
I finish my fifth week today and I have a hard time remembering how I felt back when I was having suicidal ideation - it seems impossible that I was like that even though I definitely was!!! I've still not reached Kate's joy at being alive again but I can feel the day coming. Not too far away.
Had a dipped day yesterday, with aches and pains I chose to give into but today I choose to get on with my stretches again. Plan is to walk without sticks - not sure how far, but without sticks. I start at the gym on Monday. 69 years old at the gym, in therapy talking about childhood experiences - again - sheesh, but depression has a lot to annswer for!!
david_25160 carl58303
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katecogs david_25160
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Glad to hear you're up and about Carl, and you deserve a day of rest if you're full of aches and pains. Gym eh? Sounds good!
I still get flat days, but am feeling oh so much better :-) Life certainly is good once out of that tunnel
carl58303 katecogs
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I'm trusting you over my theories, though! Feeling the joy of living again remains my goal!!
katecogs carl58303
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Yes all SSRI's flatten that curve, but I think it also allows you to start feeling normally again, frees up your mind and allows you to enjoy things once more.
carl58303 katecogs
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I know that depression is my escape route from too heavy an emotional time so I need to think about ways to better cope and manage my emotions - though I'm not at all sure about how to cope with a series of big life events slamming into your life in a short space of time. I know already that I need to talk and off-load more instead of being strong and bearing it all by myself - that strategy never has worked even though I've believed it did all my life - except for when I 'inexplicably' got depressed!!
Flatttens the curve and frees your mind of the clutter and garbage of depression, eh? Sounds good, Kate - it leaves room for joy!
katecogs carl58303
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Sounds good that it isn't bothering you so much now :-) Years ago I read everything I could about the illness, read all Dr Weeks books which were the first books which actually made sense of it all. I wish doctors would read them as they could give great advice to patients.
Yes I've also analysed what makes me sink into the hole, and I know how to get out now - albeit it very hard to do so, but with medication and that great word 'acceptance'. I wish I could go back and maybe change how I behaved with people around me when I was ill, but I know that wasn't 'me' and it was just my mind and body reacting to being ill. Again I have to accept that.
Yes it was big emotional times that first triggered my depression .... that's something I learnt only recently! Talking is a great healer, and this is such a good site to do that with like minded people.
Yes, joy ..... what a great word that is!
karen13323 david_25160
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i broke my neck in 2008, and i have found massage helps greatly with the muscle spasms and maybe that would be worth thinking about with your aches and pains Carl,
kate, my mum sufferes from manic depression, and i had a rather strange childhood because of it, but its given me the strengh and knowledge to see the symptoms in my daughter, and for that i am grateful, i learnt when to nuture, and when to back off, because of your experiances, you can help others, and thats a wonderful gift to have, its an awful illness to live with, wether your going through it, or watching the pain of someone you love suffer, but you all give me hope. x
katecogs karen13323
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Though I had depression many years ago and recovered and it was such a dreadful time in my life, I'm now grateful for the experience as it's made me appreciate life so much more, and as you say Karen, given me the experience to help my son, and others.
:-) x