One full YEAR
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Today is the day I thought I my whole world came crumbling down for the second time. Today was the day I got my phone call confirming that I was positive for herpes-2. I thought my world was over. I was afraid to let the kids I worked with touch me everything. I was in so much pain that the slightest pee made me cringe and cry. I couldn’t sleep, stand,sit nothing.
Then I had to tell my boyfriend about this whole thing. That was a tough one. He was supportive for about a week and a half and then flat out left me. Meanwhile I don’t even know if it was him that gave it to me. So I automatically thought great I have herpes and I just got dumped. How wonderful.
Well this guy came into my life again after knowing I’ve been with the other guy. We hung out and he just came out and said doesn’t he have herpes. I said is not confirmed it’s a rumor why and he said well if he has it that means you have it. I’m like and if I did get it then what, he said absolutely nothing. I don’t care. That’s when my spirits came up. Only a little.
I have had legit two outbreaks where I had legit sores and all. Any other time was just a tingle here or an itch there and I would take the medications just incase. If anyone is wondering the second outbreak does hurt. Maybe not as bad because you’re fimiliar with the pain but the pain is still there.
Since it’s been a year I still get down about it. Have I accepted it? Yes to a point. I still get down about it and it still sometimes brings me to tears but I know I’m strong enough and enough support team to pull through.
I’m starting to learn that it doesn’t define me as a person. I am still who I am and can still what every other woman or man out there can do who doesn’t have it. It doesn’t make me less pretty. I won’t lie it killed my self esteem and my self esteem was never high to begin with, but after being on this forum and others I’m beginning to love my self all over again.
There’s a reason this was put in my life and it’s time to own it 💪🏻
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I actually have a little notebook and I wrote down every system I ever had, what I did when I got an outbreak how long it lasted and so on. This helped me to learn my body
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