One Month ago I feel I'm going to shut down , that night passed and I have many problems

Hello dear friends

I hope all of you have a health and happy life...

My story start from one month and two weeks ago ...

My parents went for the holidays to other city but I have many works to do ( I'm a freelancer video editor ) so I stay at home for that 2 weeks , I work hard , drink coffee , and many times I forget to eat food lol .... 😂

Also I should mention that I have a bad addictive and that was watching ( Gore Videos ) [ I'm Sorry to say that ]

I work hard like a fking robot 24/7 about 2 weeks , drink coffee , and my hobbies was just looking at Gore ... ( I try to avoid Pr.n ) Also all of Gore Websites offer P*r.n videos but I just don't care about them and focus to watch Gore ... When I satisfied with Gore I feel My scalp itchy and a worm crawling under the my scalp , but that was a pleasure for me ... ( It was creepy but I watch more and more before I sleep )

After 2 weeks my family comeback from the travel , but imagine me ( 24 boy ) spend all of the time at home , like a jail ! Even I forget to open windows to breath fresh air ...

My parents was shocked when understand what happened to me in 2 weeks but I told them nothing happened , you see me ? I'm okay ...

About 4 days after my parents come back , In one creepy night that I was sitting front of my pc and doing my works , I feel I'm going to shutdown ... ( Unfortunately it's the exact word to describe my feeling )

My mind goes numb , my heart was overbeat , my hands and foots are numb too ...

Also I can't breath well ...

Important word : next day when I wake up I feel I have headache or maybe a worm crawling under my scalp , I was better but I feel pain in the back of my head and that pain bigger and bigger until cover all of my head ...

After that creepy night passed , I go to see a doctor , He checked my heart and ask a Complete Blood Test ...

But the funny question that the doctor asked me : Are you wake and understand what happing around you at that time ? And I said : yes ... But He said it's okay and don't give drugs to me ....

After 5 days Again I go to see the doctor with the answer of my CBC , nothing wrong with me but He gave me the drugs after that : fluoxetine and propranolol and ...

And when I asked : what happened to me ?

He said : nothing , some anxiety and stress ...

Then write : anxiety , anxiety disorder , and ... On my documents and gave that documents to nurse ...

But if I be honest with you I don't use that garbage drugs but my heart still over beating ...

After one week I feel my heart have really hard pain , I go to that hospital again and ask for heart doctor , and after ECG and Sonography He said you are okay but it's wondering , your heart is overbeating ...

So he gave me some beta blockers like bisoprolol but if I be honest with you I don't use them , I try to use lavender tea , mint extract and ... in one word ( herbals ) to reduce my problem ... ( I try to avoid chemical drugs )

So after all of them now I have very very bad headaches , one time it's start from back of my head , one time start from left side , one time start from right side and by passing the time it's cover all of my head , I notice that when this happens I became a light sensitive , my ears listen everything well even buzzing from a housefly from our neighbor house ....!

My nose is getting stronger and I feel smell from everywhere ...

All of this signs are unstable , they are coming and going automatically ...

I think I should see a nerve doctor , but really what do you think about me ?

I think I got panic attack and after that now I have migraine .....!

What should I do ?

Should I see a psychologist ?

Does that gore videos effect on me ?

I afraid my mind goes to become chemical ( chemical mind )

Has anybody feeling same problem like me ?

Please help me about my problem

Dear Friends really I need your help ...

Thank you for your attention 🌹

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