Opiate addiction - Urgent advice needed
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Hi
I have been a prescription opiate addict for about 7 years now, relapse after relapse. I've hidden this all from my wife and have been caught a few times each time I promise to stop but end up relapsing (and hiding it again). I have acquired these opiates (codeine, tramadol and oxycontin) by lying to my GP about back pain.
After the new year I got caught again and my wife basically said stop now or go, we went to the doctors together and I admitted everything (yet again). My doctor gave me a taper plan and referred me to a addiction center. Its not going well at all. My wife was very dubious about me going but I said at least I can try,
I attended the first meeting and all looked quite promising. The first thing they do is get you to admit you have a problem, The second meeting my keyworker stated that he thinks I need to see their specialist doctor and will more than likely need to go on ORT (Opiate replacement therapy) which will probably be Buprenorphine and this will probably last about 6 months as well as normal weekly counselling sessions and weekly drug tests to make sure I am conforming with the plan.
I thought this would be a good idea but when I returned home and suggested this to my wife the SHTF. She basically said no way and that I wasnt going to be going back to my next session. "you dont need it" was the response I got. Basically she thinks I can stop and after 2-3 days everything will be back to normal. She doesnt understand addiction and hates drugs. I've explained this to my key worker and he stated to bring her in so he can talk to her. She wouldnt go and if she did she wouldnt listen to a word anyway, she so stubborn. I know I have let her down and my kids down but i really now believe this ORT will work for me.
So my next session is tomorrow, which I will will see the doctor, and basically cant go, if I do and come back with a script my marriage will be over and ill lose my kids, if I dont go I fear i will relapse and my marriage will be over and ill lose my kids.
I dont know what to do.
trent
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TrentSteel
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Hi All
Not posted anything for a while but not been a great couple of weeks tbh.
Ok so I heard NOTHING from the Doctor at CGL, I chased it up a few times and was always told that I would be getting an email with an appt, nothing happened. I went to the last meeting with CGL last week and got told "be patient" someone will contact you shortly
So I decided to quit CGL and don't hold much faith for these services (2nd time really its happened) I'm going to see my own GP on friday and wil ask her to give me the ORT instead. Shes very understanding and helpful so I'm hoping she will. Can any GP prescribe it ?
Also I'm thinking of another route in case that doesnt work either. Someone has mentioned that what help them withdraw BIG TIME was vaping (e-cig) with CBD vaping liquid. They said it was a god send. Yeah didnt kill all the WD's but helped with the most nasty.
Has anyone tried CBD ? Does it work ? (I smoke ciggies anyway and am looking to quit that too).
Cheers
Trent
TrentSteel
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Hi
So I'm back to square one again, taking loads of codeine again daily and hiding it from my wife. I did start attending CGL but was promised an appt to see their doctor and go on Subutex but that appt never came and no-one bothered so I stopped going and went back on the codeine so was not too impressed with them at all
I got caught again last friday so I got matched to the doctors, my GP wont do antying for me and told me to ring CGL again
So I rang CGL and I'm going to see them on Thursday and then see their Doctor sometime next week (19th) So I am currently going through WD's hell on earth, seems much worse than any others I've had before, Don't know what to do, at a real low and just need some help. I asked my Doctor to at least give me something like Clonidine to help ease some of the WD's but he wont even give me a paractemol at the moment.
Can I ring another service and get seen quicker somewhere else ?
TrentSteel
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Ok so I have some sort of relief today from the hellish withdrawals that I am going through.
I got up (with hardly sleeping at all) this morning and was in a right mess. So I thought enough is enough and tried to get hold of CGL, what a shocker I could not get hold of them. So I went on their website and read a lot of information about medication thats used to help alleviate some of the WD's. They Mentioned, Subutex, Methadone, Benzoapines and lastly Clonidine
I knew few a fact my GP would not prescribe me any more opiates or benzos so I rang and asked them if they would consider giving me some Clonidine as thats what CGL use... I was desperate
The doctor said it a bit unorthadox but he actually looked it up and eventually agreed and did me a script. So Now I have some (not all) relief so I may get some sleep tonight. I feel more relaxed, my skin has stopped crawling, the hot and cold flushes have gone, the diahreea has stoppped and Ive managed to eat something. I actually feel like I could sleep right now which is the best remedy to detox.
I dont think I will go on ORT as by the time I see the Addiction Doctor (next week) I will be free from opiates (should start feeling better on thursday I reckon) and I have the Clonidine that will last 2 weeks.
So If this really helps and I'm able to get to thursday then Im not going on ORT and will Just stay on the Clonidine until its gone.
Ill keep you posted
Trent
TrentSteel
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Hi All
Ok so its Day 7 of withdrawal, I am finally out of the worse of it!
So now I suppose Phase 2 kicks in and boy has it kicked in.
Today I feel so so low, like a dull ache inside that wont go away, I am seriously fatigued, have no energy or no motivation. All of the physical WD's have gone but I get the occasional yawning & watery eyes and goosebumps. I am struggling to sleep properly at night and I so cold all the time.
One day at a time now I suppose
Trent