opinions please?
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I got out of hospital a couple of weeks ago from an overdose, and since ive got out, ive constantly thought about doing it again and I get so angry I feel like hurting other people now too (although im sure I never could, I'm not a violent person at all). that was the second overdose ive taken and I keep thinking of other ways to do it now which does scare me. I'm very very paranoid, I live by myself and I triple check the house before I go to bed, behind the curtains and doors, the bathroom etc. my sleeping pattern is extremely messed up, sleep from 9am-4pm ish and so on. I get so angry and mad at every body that speaks to me eg friends and family because I feel like they're constantly judging me and think they know how I feel when they really don't. they say things like 'itll be okay' or 'lighten up' when they claim to know what im going through and I just get so mad. I'm always constantly on the verge of either screaming or breaking tears and I just don't know what to do anymore.
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hypercat danielle_62923
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You are not alone now though coz we all understand on here how you are feeling. Sometimes we don't get the help, support and understand we need in our real lives which is why forums like this exist. Feel free to vent on here if it helps as you are in a safe supportive place. x
danielle_62923 hypercat
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LoneWolf7 danielle_62923
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For your sleeping patterns, don't fall asleep when 9am comes around, stay awake untill that following night then jump into bed around 7 and just relax and aim to be ready to sleep around 10 or 11, you might get worked up and a little stressed because of it but thats okay your body is adapting to it
But for overdosing, it's not worth it, I promise
jes46673 danielle_62923
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Have you thought of going to therapy?
danielle_62923 jes46673
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I have thought of therapy and I do think it would probably help, but I feel extremely uncomfortable talking face-to-face about my feelings. even with my mum, if I'm really bad I won't tell her to her face it has to be on a text. I don't know why. x
hypercat danielle_62923
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It is very different talking to a therapist as they are a stranger and that easier often than talking to those we love. Also they are trained in how to help you find your own answers. You might find it difficult at first but I think you should try counselling. x
gillian20097 danielle_62923
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Our families and friends feel frustrated because they don't know what to do to help us and to see us so lost and scared breaks there hearts. They try to come up with solutions to fix us and they are honestly doing it with the best intentions,not realising that it's not so easy...if it where....we would of done it!!!
My mum is full of great ideas to get me motivated but her suggestions only force me further into the corner,frightened that I will let them all down.
Truth is....we are all capable of doing all the things we did before....every part of our bodies are working just how it should...the only thing different from before is that now we have depression/ anxiety which has temporarily mixed up our minds and made us believe that all the things we used to be able to do without a second thought...we are job longer capable of doing. Anxiety and depression are liars. Today I needed to go shopping but anxiety told me I couldn't...that I'd flip out and go mental in the middle of asda.....I ignored it and went anyway.....Yes I was very uncomfortable and yes I did a speed shop but I didn't die,I didn't flip out and I got home in one piece......If I keep proving depression and anxiety wrong....then it will lose its power over me and eventually have no place in my life.
Every day is a struggle but I am determined now that this is not going to take another moment from me. I'm ready to move on and win the battle. In weeks to come Hun,so will you. Each day you will get a tiny bit stronger..your mind will retrieve old memories and know the way it should be thinking and know the things you are capable of. It takes time but you will get there.....Be strong,be brave and take the tiniest of steps until you reach your goal xxx
annie76135 gillian20097
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danielle_62923 gillian20097
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