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7 months ago I was taken off citalopram and put on paroxetine, initially on 20mg.
After running out a few months later I decided to stop altogether. After 2 weeks and the " brain zaps"
Which I found bloody terrifying and so unpleasant I returned to the docs and he put me back on them but upped the dose to 30mg!!! Made no comment about the "zaps" just said you cannot just stop taking these drugs. ( The past year or so is the only time I have taken anti depressants for anxiety so my knowledge of them was limited to say the least).
I continued to take the paroxetine, after 3 months at that dosage I took an overdose, never felt so low in all my life, a week later I did it again. That was 2 weeks ago just over. I have never had any suicidal tendencies even when I was diagnosed with anxiety.
Since then I have not touched them, and am awaiting counselling. I have felt calmer and more myself than I have done since I started taking the damn things!! Ironically since I went cold turkey my mum passed away after a battle with cancer and I have started a new job. I have made an appt with my doctor but have made it crystal clear I will not be taking them or any form of anti depressant again.
I am getting the zaps again and they are tedious and could last, but I am coping with them by not dwelling when I get one. I have found that they are worse when I first get up, once I am up and around aand at work they seem to ease off a great deal and just occur infrequently through the day. When I am sat down they are regular but if I do not make sudden movements....obviously I hope once it's all out of my system this will ease off, this drug is very very unpleasant and none of the awful withdrawal symptoms are made clear by the doctor. Even when the dosage is lowered and people are weaning off it they are getting awful withdrawal symptoms. So I may as well carry on as I am ( 26 years ago my mum went cold turkey off anti depressants and succeeded. If she could do it I can)
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