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It was my 18th birthday last weekend and I was really looking forward to having a fun time and starting fresh. The night turned out to be a disaster I fell on the floor, hit my head(I have a bump on my forehead and bruised nose) and I also injured my knee pretty bad but I decided to still tried to not let it get my spirits down. I then got my phone stolen and that was enough to set me off.
I lost my dad 3 years ago and I never really had a chance to talk to anyone about this really because my family had to move to a different country(Latin America to Europe). This was also really hard but I adapted and found myself a nice friend group. Then my relationship with my sister deteriorated over the next 3 years due to drugs, and I haven't spoken to her in about 1 year and a half. School(IB Program)is extremely hard to keep up with, I fell like with every step forward I take 2 back and always have major anxiety as to if I will be able to finish it or not, I have about 6 months left, and it keeps getting harder and harder.
All of this is really just catching up to me and I can't stop crying, I don't want to leave my home; my mom is letting me stay home and telling me to take it easy, I don't want to talk to my friends but now that I have a phone again they are all trying to reach out. I feel extremely s**t and I just sit here feeling numb and crying over nothing. I ask myself why I am crying and I down know. I get really frustrated at myself. As I also sit at home I have so much anxiety over school, and how I shouldn't be at home and I should be catching up. But I also can't seem to be able to concentrate or find any motivation.
I really just don't know what to do anymore.
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