Perimenopause. Suffering badly

Yes depression and anxiety (when anxiety began to lift I thought oh no what's wrong now because I felt odd and kind of floppy). My husband has kept telling me for years to relax my shoulders.

The first 8 nights perfect sleep and wake refreshed and just felt like before it all began.

The sleep didn't last and has gone back to sleeping then waking a few hours later but better than the no sleep for a night and sleeping in the morning that it had become.

Libido much better sore and dry vagina better no palpitations (the first week was like early peri I'd get them briefly and then they were gone again but none since 2 weeks in. At 6 to 8 weeks I had return of queasy nausea feelings and metallic taste but was all gone even the taste (yay first time totally free of it for days in years 6, or 7 years maybe).

Urgent need to pee has gone I get up once sometimes not at all at night gone from 3 sometimes 4 times. Memory, I can finish sentences on my own again and I've stopped um um all the time trying to think of the word I need.

So sleep still not great and shoulder pain hasn't gone but horrible pains in my feet went almost straight away.

I had the best Christmas with regards depression in 10 years.

I've lost 6 lbs without trying.

This sounds crazy but my driving got better, I'd turned into a real granny at the wheel.

My family had heard enough so I would say to my self " oh I feel wretched/sick/awful or whatever then by the second week I'm oh I just felt so normal then.

I chose a bio identical gel (I do get it on NHS) because it is easy to adjust dose so next time I see my GP I will ask if I can try more for a month or so to see if it aids the sleep again.

I know it was the estrogen as that was the only thing I was doing different and the sleep was bliss waking each day feeling ready to face anything instead of feeling add tired as when I went to bed.

I'm sure there is stuff I've missed here, silly things like when I go for a wee it shoots out in a jet like it used to instead of dribbling out all over me. Also talking of the loo managing without laxatives, it's not perfect but much better.

I've still had times anxiety and depression but they are transient, by the time I've thought oh no it's gone again. The same with feeling hot by the time I've thought shall I take my coat off it's gone again.

I'm not full of energy but things seem a bit easier, two shopping trips with my daughter since I started and both times managed to keep going instead of finding the closest café and waiting I went and got some clothes.

I did a detox a few years ago and first left then right ear went off with a pop and felt like an air bubble I didn't have tinnitus any more after that.

If toy want to know what I used PM me by pressing on the grey envelope next to my name as my posts get moderated if I say what it is.

I just wondered if you are still looking at this site?

Yes I am but a while ago I updated my phone to a new operating system and since then I don't seem to be getting as many email with posts on that I used to.

Just eventually had a phone appointment with my GP and had my estrogen dose increased (only a few days ago so hard to tell if it's making any difference) at the moment can only say it's made me less dry vaginally.

Sleep is still a problem awake all night last night. Oh and shoulder pain gone (that happened before increase in dose)

I wondered what HRT you're on and the strength?

Just gone from 2 pumps to 4 because I'm still not sleeping well. I haven't noticed any difference except I'm making more vaginal lubrication (good as although the 2 pumps had improved it a lot I could still be a bit dry on inner labia). Only 3 days on 4 pumps noticed increased lubrication on first higher dose.

Not done anything for my sleep so far.

In fact last time I had a few days of headache I'd overused the oestrogel (I was also fumbling for words and heating up again) it got better again once I'd started on a new pump pack.

So maybe you are taking in too much?