Please help - feeling terrible and hopeless
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Hi all. So I'm on citalopram and have been since Friday 29th August (starting on 10mg, 20mg for about 2 weeks now) and today is by far the worst day so far. I feel totally hopeless - almost suicidal which isn't like me at all. I'm going on holiday tomorrow yet I'm still in my pajamas and haven't packed a thing or arranged anything. Everything is an effort, even going to the kitchen to get water. I'm taking amitriptyline at night to help me sleep but for 3 days that hasn't worked so I've been reduced to taking zopiclone. I'm trying so so hard to tell myself it will get better but feel it's a real struggle at the moment. While I've been positive most days, today I'm finding it pretty much impossoble. I just want to hide away. For the first time the day has flown by, and not in a good way. Most days drag because of the anxiety but today just feels like I wonder why I even got out of bed because I'll be going to bed soon.
Although I'm trying to stay calm and tell myself alot of this will be side effects, I'd really appreciate some positive advice, vibes and success stories to get me through this difficult time.
Thank you x
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sue38919 holly_t
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It's still early days yet - please don't give up. It can take up to 6-8 weeks before you start noticing a difference so hang on in there!
loxie holly_t
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holly_t loxie
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davey_b holly_t
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loxie davey_b
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AnonymousWoman holly_t
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If you are feeling really bad or afraid you would actually do something drastic, you should contact your doctor and maybe consider trying other meds.
If not, it's difficult, but the meds can cause these side effects. If you can hang on in there you may find you hit a turning point and things start getting better.
I must stress that in my experience CBT is even more helpful than meds alone and helps you reach a place where you can get a more permanent change! :D
Ultimately though, you are the only one who can lift yourself out of the depression as it is you who has the power to challenge your negative thoughts or make some positive changes to your lifestyle. Try some of my tips, they saved me! https://patient.info/forums/discuss/-golden-list-tips-for-anxiety-depression-270878
All my best wishes,
Agirl xx
henrietta54 holly_t
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holly_t henrietta54
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How did you get on?
I just came back from holiday yesterday... I had an amazing week. I stopped taking the amitriptyline and was able to sleep all week, albeit broken but I wasn't worrying about it at all! I just eventually drifted back off. Was feeling very confident and then..
Our flight came in late last night, 1am. I'd had a few restless doses on the plane but thought I'd be fine when I got home. However last night was one of the worst nights since my anxiety started. Its like I've now come home and everything that happened the last week wasn't real! I feel ok today which is good i suppose, usually after having a night like that I would be in a state all day the next day, crying, shaking. So I suppose it is working.
These ups and downs eh!
I'm back at work on Monday so I'm going to see how I get on tonight without the amitriptyline. i just dont' want to rely on them AND citalopram!
Anyway would be good to know how you're doing x
davey_b holly_t
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loxie davey_b
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davey_b loxie
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holly_t
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Our flight came in late last night, 1am. I'd had a few restless doses on the plane but thought I'd be fine when I got home. However last night was one of the worst nights since my anxiety started. Its like I've now come home and everything that happened the last week wasn't real! I feel ok today which is good i suppose, usually after having a night like that I would be in a state all day the next day, crying, shaking. So I suppose it is working.
These ups and downs eh!
I'm back at work on Monday so I'm going to see how I get on tonight without the amitriptyline. i just dont' want to rely on them AND citalopram!
Anyway would be good to know how you're all doing x