Please help I've tried everything (health anxiety)
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I've posted on here two other times about the same ongoing mental health issue (chronic health anxiety and depression) and I've taken in all the advice I've gotten from people I've seen struggling with it on the internet, doctors and family members but nothing is working and I'm going crazy here! I mean I am literally going insane! I am so scared of dying it's not even funny! It's all I am focused on from the minute I wake until the minute I go to sleep! (some nights I can't even sleep because of it) I get a pain in my neck and instantly I'm at the conclusion that I've got a blood clot forming or I get a headache and I jump straight on the "I've got a tumor growing and spreading" path of thought. I go to the doctor weekly and some weeks I even go as far as to see him every 3 days. It's costing me so much money that I don't have and it doesn't help that I lost my job because of it. I'm only 19 years old and I have never had this constant fear of death before so it's scaring me! I can't do anything without worrying it's going to make me Ill or kill me! I get scared of choking on food while eating. I get worried about being in a car crash while I'm out. I think if I go to sleep I won't wake in the morning so I avoid it at almost all cost most nights! Someone please please please tell me there is a light at the end of this dark and doom filled tunnel because I feel so alone and frightened that I just want to lock myself in a padded room for the rest of my life! It's even gotten to the point that my menstrual cycle doesn't even show up some months due to the intense stress I'm dealing with. Which doesn't help because I immediately assume it must be cervical cancer! A lot of people tell me I need to come to terms with the inevitable (death) but I just can't see that happening! It's the biggest fear I have and I don't want to die! Also I've been tested for cancer and other various things via blood tests, urine samples, ultrasounds, MRI scans and a CT scan in which I had an allergic reaction to the contrast solution and couldn't breathe so now I'm even scared of getting routine tests done! I check my pulse almost constantly throughout the whole too so much so that it's leaving bruising on my neck from the constant pressure of my fingers. Sorry for my novel but I am at the end of my tether here and I just need some reassurance of some sort although I doubt I'll find any thanks.
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omeara78 Kiralee8
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Ebone Kiralee8
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papote53 Kiralee8
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Sorry to hear about your struggles so I'm going to ask you 2 simple questions. What are you eating ( if you eat at all) ? And are you taking any medication ( if so, which one) Their is a light at the end but it takes time, testing, hard work and patience.
jmcg2014 Kiralee8
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pearl70642 Kiralee8
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I can relate to what your going through. I had a nervous breakdown when I was 42 and now I'm a young 71 as you can tell by my picture. I can only tell you I have finally getting some answers. Are you on medication? Have your seritonin and your hormones checked. Get on some anti anxiety suplements or meds. Start taking 5htp. I use to think about dying all the time and now I don't and I'm not afraid to die so go figure. I have tried everything from acupuncture to Reike to cranial massage to a psycic, but nothing helped. Make sure you are eating healthy. I swear to you it will get better if you don't give up. Find a support group. I know when I was 42 I didn't know where to turn to so I know your frustration. I'm willing to talk to you on the phone if you want just let me know and I will give you my #. I know how painful this is and no one can get you through this except you. Make sure you have a good support people who you can talk to. I know this is a stigma so talk to people who you can trust and understands. Don't give up you have too much to live for. We are here for you.
I live in Washington state.
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pearl70642 Kiralee8
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I wrote you a message, but it is being moderated. I did suggest some things so maybe that is why. I am a young 71 and have been going through this for 30 years off and on. I too was afraid of dying, but I don't think about it anymore. I could suggest somethings that might be helpful, but maybe I'm not suppose to on this site. You will get better just don't give up.
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